Just like tradition, I'm only minutes away from getting to the New Year. I don't really have any resolutions. I already have been trying to live them from last year and ongoing this year. I'm just going to have to do the best I can then.
I've been so busy and not doing the best at everything. I'm just not thinking that smart as I used to but I guess in the end, it's all going to work out eventually. I think it's just how it is and have to just do your best. It's worth it as well in the end.
I'm just thinking random for these last posts and it is really isn't anything.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Sunday, December 31, 2017
Last Minute Post
Well there's a few minutes left today for me. If I was in the east coast then it would have been too late to make sure that I had the routine posts for all these years. It's amazing that I remembered still. I guess what became a tradition is going to stick with you.
I was really tempted to waste my time with Hope of God Church in Los Angeles by trolling them and just being there and by just being present, it would bug some of those dumb people there. I wouldn't have any problem bringing it to their attention now. Actually, I could care less what they think about me now and I'm not mad what they are about with me anymore. It took so long to get used to it.
I was really tempted to waste my time with Hope of God Church in Los Angeles by trolling them and just being there and by just being present, it would bug some of those dumb people there. I wouldn't have any problem bringing it to their attention now. Actually, I could care less what they think about me now and I'm not mad what they are about with me anymore. It took so long to get used to it.
Wednesday, December 27, 2017
App Programming Idea
I will have worked as a computer programmer for one year now and will have already gained a pretty good level of experience in working with SQL database. I have an interest of something I want to program for myself, so if it turns out being great for me, then I'll try to turn it into a service for others.
I don't think it's going to be a one hit wonder for me because I'm not that type of guy who connects with the majority so much for my own personal stuff. If I did want to appeal to the masses, then I would have to go with developing video games. It's honestly something that I'm sure a lot of dedicated guys who are into playing video games day and night if they could afford it would be pretty good at doing. I happen to be one of those guys who wishes he could play the best video games out there while having a wonderful sex life with a really sweet and attractive wife.
From doing some research, it looks like the most money in programming is going to come from rapid development in creating apps. The languages python and ruby on rails are the ones that seem to be paying great dividends, so I say why not try to create some serviceable apps that will cater to me first and then be able to launch a subscription for others interested as well. All I know is that it will profit me the most from being able to be more organized.
I'm planning on programming my own online database with an app that connects to it and records all my trades and then create tools to be able to analyze the best and worst trades I made. I think this would be a very nice thing for me. If it works for me then I will launch it for others to openly criticize how bad its design is and then I will go ahead and fix it!
Secondly I also do want to create an app with online database that will keep track of all the stuff I have in my storage unit. If that ends up being useful for me then I might as well go for launching a service for people.
I think I'll just copy and paste some ideas like service agreement terms except just modify a few words. I think it will be fun to do that. If I can really be well off with my investments then I'm going to switch over to developing video games to appeal to the mass and make some profit. With video games, I'm likely to program in another language besides python and probably will be in C++.
I don't think it's going to be a one hit wonder for me because I'm not that type of guy who connects with the majority so much for my own personal stuff. If I did want to appeal to the masses, then I would have to go with developing video games. It's honestly something that I'm sure a lot of dedicated guys who are into playing video games day and night if they could afford it would be pretty good at doing. I happen to be one of those guys who wishes he could play the best video games out there while having a wonderful sex life with a really sweet and attractive wife.
From doing some research, it looks like the most money in programming is going to come from rapid development in creating apps. The languages python and ruby on rails are the ones that seem to be paying great dividends, so I say why not try to create some serviceable apps that will cater to me first and then be able to launch a subscription for others interested as well. All I know is that it will profit me the most from being able to be more organized.
I'm planning on programming my own online database with an app that connects to it and records all my trades and then create tools to be able to analyze the best and worst trades I made. I think this would be a very nice thing for me. If it works for me then I will launch it for others to openly criticize how bad its design is and then I will go ahead and fix it!
Secondly I also do want to create an app with online database that will keep track of all the stuff I have in my storage unit. If that ends up being useful for me then I might as well go for launching a service for people.
I think I'll just copy and paste some ideas like service agreement terms except just modify a few words. I think it will be fun to do that. If I can really be well off with my investments then I'm going to switch over to developing video games to appeal to the mass and make some profit. With video games, I'm likely to program in another language besides python and probably will be in C++.
Spending Time Wisely
I have about $450 remaining on my online poker account. I was up to about $600 at one point. Now I'm back down and cashing it out while accepting a loss of $50. Well, it could be worse and I guess I'm sick of trying to make money while gambling online now.
It just doesn't add up for me now because I would rather be the guy who manages the poker company with software and promoting events. It's a lot harder to manage but I believe the payoff would be better if it had a nice following of members.
Okay, so reading the Bible today took me almost two hours and it looks like I'll be dedicating that amount on a daily basis just for it. I'm just going for reading three chapters a day and trying to read every word from also a commentary. This guy- J. Vernon McGee and his commentary with going through every verse of the Bible takes awhile to read! He can just go off with pages on just one verse alone and it's a lot to take in, so yeah, I'm just barely hanging in there. I'm just making the attempt to read the Bible and his commentary even if I don't still get it or my mind is on something else.
So yeah, I'll be looking at my personal schedule and trying to avoid mindless activities of just surfing the web and playing card games that aren't really that rewarding either. I'm really seeing myself just uninstalling everything on my computer that might not be of great use to me. I would really like to start making a productive attempt at being good with stuff.
Tuesday, December 26, 2017
Making Use of Time And Money
Currently, I have a hair clinic that I visit month which costs me about $200 and then I have memberships to three other gyms which costs me a total of $100. I'm basically spending $300 right there already for purposes of growing hair and trying to improve my physique.
The problem now is that three gyms feels like a lot and a burden on me. I just need to know how to put that together because I like each one. I also have gas money which could easily pile to up to another $300 each month. I got loans to pay off so overall, I'm probably just going to be left with $1000 for my personal savings each month. If I end up monitoring what I spend and am able to save as much as possible for necessities than maybe I might have something. It's a good thing that I don't have child support bills to pay off or otherwise I would go broke!
I think at the current lifestyle I'm living. I will need another three years before I am completely debt free and can save up money for a house. I guess I will be affording my own first house past the age 40 at this point in time. I don't want just some random and small house in some random city. I want something pretty nice and comfortable to live in!
At the age 40, I can see myself having something going with my Forex trades finally and maybe that could be the age that I finally catch a break from having to work at a company with long hours. I think if I work hard now then maybe I might be able to make it happen before the age 40 arrives.
My deadbeat friend is going nowhere and his plans are going to be shot to the roof. He's just a lonely and selfish guy but can't really get anywhere from just not being smart and refusing to change himself for the better. He's just unable to stand his own personal mess and would rather just avoid it while thinking he deserves to be the clear favorite. Yeah he's pretty dumb and full of contradictions and it seems to be that he can't accept how things are. I think overall it's just better to only hang with him occasionally out of having a long history of being friends.
The problem now is that three gyms feels like a lot and a burden on me. I just need to know how to put that together because I like each one. I also have gas money which could easily pile to up to another $300 each month. I got loans to pay off so overall, I'm probably just going to be left with $1000 for my personal savings each month. If I end up monitoring what I spend and am able to save as much as possible for necessities than maybe I might have something. It's a good thing that I don't have child support bills to pay off or otherwise I would go broke!
I think at the current lifestyle I'm living. I will need another three years before I am completely debt free and can save up money for a house. I guess I will be affording my own first house past the age 40 at this point in time. I don't want just some random and small house in some random city. I want something pretty nice and comfortable to live in!
At the age 40, I can see myself having something going with my Forex trades finally and maybe that could be the age that I finally catch a break from having to work at a company with long hours. I think if I work hard now then maybe I might be able to make it happen before the age 40 arrives.
My deadbeat friend is going nowhere and his plans are going to be shot to the roof. He's just a lonely and selfish guy but can't really get anywhere from just not being smart and refusing to change himself for the better. He's just unable to stand his own personal mess and would rather just avoid it while thinking he deserves to be the clear favorite. Yeah he's pretty dumb and full of contradictions and it seems to be that he can't accept how things are. I think overall it's just better to only hang with him occasionally out of having a long history of being friends.
Figuring Out Problems
I guess I've made my decision to completely let go of playing online poker and to maybe play some live poker occasionally if I ever go to visit Las Vegas. I don't care about losing a couple hundred dollars to another fellow player who outplayed me or with how the chips fell. I think I'll even play with friends if it's ever something that's done.
Basically, I'm going to just stay away from playing poker while glued to my smartphone or computer now. I know that I can personally feel that there's something better for me to do and I just need to reach after it now.
With all of this break time that I'm having, I'm really enjoying how I'm taking the time to just meditate on myself and make some powerful decisions. I just made the decision to leave behind a dumb and selfish friend too. I texted him that I hope he changes for the better and I will pray to Jesus about him almost everyday. Yeah, I got pretty close with my buddy and he seems to be gradually losing his peace of mind and letting little things disturb him. He has no stable job and is a dead-end art student with not much high quality work and he just likes to think he's the best. He's really in for not getting what he wants and he will probably blame it on someone else and come up with reasons that he's right.
Well if you think of it, you already have it or you don't and complaining about what happened in the past isn't going to make you a better person already, it's only going to set you up for more disappointments and depression later on from refusing to change. Overall, I don't think he minds my call that I'm going to start hanging out with him less until he picks things back up for himself.
Basically, I'm going to just stay away from playing poker while glued to my smartphone or computer now. I know that I can personally feel that there's something better for me to do and I just need to reach after it now.
With all of this break time that I'm having, I'm really enjoying how I'm taking the time to just meditate on myself and make some powerful decisions. I just made the decision to leave behind a dumb and selfish friend too. I texted him that I hope he changes for the better and I will pray to Jesus about him almost everyday. Yeah, I got pretty close with my buddy and he seems to be gradually losing his peace of mind and letting little things disturb him. He has no stable job and is a dead-end art student with not much high quality work and he just likes to think he's the best. He's really in for not getting what he wants and he will probably blame it on someone else and come up with reasons that he's right.
Well if you think of it, you already have it or you don't and complaining about what happened in the past isn't going to make you a better person already, it's only going to set you up for more disappointments and depression later on from refusing to change. Overall, I don't think he minds my call that I'm going to start hanging out with him less until he picks things back up for himself.
Crossing Off Essentials
I guess since it's the holiday, it's been nice to keep a running do list. I've been e-mailing myself it every week since starting last month. It's worked out quite nicely for me because I don't need to write anything out and it's just cleaner for me to look at it on my e-mail from my smartphone. It's actually pretty smart, and I'm sure it's funny for some people. It's worked for me though.
Getting stuff done and being able to give myself some play time is amazing. I don't think I could afford to mess around too much anymore and should start making some wise choices and investments that may work for me really well. I have some pretty good goals in mind and they do make me feel happy in some way to reach after.
It's been just a work in progress and I have to say that I don't really want to squander these last few days I have left before going back to work. With stuff improving in my life and just making progress in general, I can see how I'm starting to make a good impact.
Getting stuff done and being able to give myself some play time is amazing. I don't think I could afford to mess around too much anymore and should start making some wise choices and investments that may work for me really well. I have some pretty good goals in mind and they do make me feel happy in some way to reach after.
It's been just a work in progress and I have to say that I don't really want to squander these last few days I have left before going back to work. With stuff improving in my life and just making progress in general, I can see how I'm starting to make a good impact.
Wow, the Year is Almost Over
I can really say that I've improved a whole lot with my personal well-being. I am a lot more confident and capable of holding my weight with individuals who are questionable people. One of the nice changes to my life so far has been that I don't really care about being only 5' 3" now. For being a guy this short, I've been through a lot of baloney with people and have even scared them because they just wanted to think in a dumb manner.
From the way I'm communicating, it really comes down to holding onto personal confidence and I seem to have plenty of it.
From the way I'm communicating, it really comes down to holding onto personal confidence and I seem to have plenty of it.
Living With Purpose
I can now say that being overwhelmed with a bunch of things to do, but not attempting to fix it is plain silly. For starters, keeping a list of all the activities written down and breaking it down in a manageable form with purpose and proper motivation really helps. I really think that book on reaching goals by the founder of Scientology is very amazing, and I'm reiterating that it deals nothing with religion.
I guess I can go ahead with managing my money and trying to get my money's worth with some memberships. If I just sit there and not do anything about it then I'm just wasting my money with something I meant for myself to be a good thing.
I think next year while approaching my 35th year, things are really going to be changing for me. I also like how the people who acted like idiots with me aren't really trying to bother. It seems like life is what you want to make out of it and to have people who acted dumb with me in my life who I can try to remind that they acted dumb with me is all the fun in the world that I can have.
I guess I can go ahead with managing my money and trying to get my money's worth with some memberships. If I just sit there and not do anything about it then I'm just wasting my money with something I meant for myself to be a good thing.
I think next year while approaching my 35th year, things are really going to be changing for me. I also like how the people who acted like idiots with me aren't really trying to bother. It seems like life is what you want to make out of it and to have people who acted dumb with me in my life who I can try to remind that they acted dumb with me is all the fun in the world that I can have.
Resolving Dilemma and Conflict
One of the things I struggled with for like the longest time was getting a hold on my sexual behavior. Sometimes, I'm so in the mood that I even wish I had a wife who felt the same way with me. I guess I've been experimenting with my sexual junk and making sure everything is working fine every once in awhile. I've been trying to tolerate the speed found in free porno videos found online. Yeah, I've been building tolerance and if I stay away for awhile, it becomes very sensitive again and will feel so much better after edging. I guess once every six months is torture for most guys who admit to being addicted to porn. I think it's just a daily decision to just live with those feelings of desiring sex with a girl who has a beautiful face and toned looking attractive body.
I think to get to the point of finding a hot girl with a swell personality and a knack to have lots of loving and romantic sex with her husband, you have to be ready for it. The things I could just work on improving myself would be my fitness level, spirituality, relationship, happiness, and money. I believe that I was born with a desire to always want to continually improve myself as a whole. When I do reach a goal, I like to live it out in that moment of happiness as long as I can before naturally finding another thing I need to get better at.
I think to get to the point of finding a hot girl with a swell personality and a knack to have lots of loving and romantic sex with her husband, you have to be ready for it. The things I could just work on improving myself would be my fitness level, spirituality, relationship, happiness, and money. I believe that I was born with a desire to always want to continually improve myself as a whole. When I do reach a goal, I like to live it out in that moment of happiness as long as I can before naturally finding another thing I need to get better at.
Making Choices
It looks like I'm about trying to make the right choices as the end of the year approaches. One of my buddies is pretty much a dumb and selfish guy but lonely. I think it's safe to say that it might be more common than one might think.
From having taken this Jesus-filled approach with just tackling every personal issue with complete honesty and leaving myself to not avoid anything, I can say that I've grown a lot as a person. Also, I never really thought in my wildest imagination that a girl could actually be such a cool person to hang out with and even bond together with as a friend. I remember the days I would just act like a jerk with my little sister and tease her while getting her to form a grudge with me that she was in denial with.
Instead of just one girl, make that actually several- four to be exact and still room to grow in my life.
From having taken this Jesus-filled approach with just tackling every personal issue with complete honesty and leaving myself to not avoid anything, I can say that I've grown a lot as a person. Also, I never really thought in my wildest imagination that a girl could actually be such a cool person to hang out with and even bond together with as a friend. I remember the days I would just act like a jerk with my little sister and tease her while getting her to form a grudge with me that she was in denial with.
Instead of just one girl, make that actually several- four to be exact and still room to grow in my life.
Tuesday, December 19, 2017
One of the Things I Would Like
I guess one of my main goals going onto next year will be finally working myself out of debt and also creating a side income that will seriously benefit me so much that I won't even have to go to my primary job. I honestly would like to become an investor and the first thing I've personally chosen for my own tastes is trading Forex. I don't recommend it for anyone and it's like something you have to be resilient with and is pretty much a dog-eat-dog world where it can just take majority of people's money. It's pretty much like gambling as a team in a way and you have to be really smart. I'm using some tools to be mathematical at it and I just happen to like it and think it can be something I could make my primary living off of.
It would be nice to be successful and finally be able to afford my own place that's even better than my parent's home and to have so much sufficient time. I'll seriously need to expand my portfolio with investing once I can get something going. I might just try to work at being a game programmer and volunteer physician or something like that so I can have something to fall back on in case I ever need money and doing something that I see myself enjoying.
To becoming a doctor while being rich and willing to work for free, I think I'll need an understanding girlfriend or wife to do that. Probably not going to be happening for me and was nice dreaming it, so maybe I'll just be a health nut and try to take classes where I can watch live surgeries take place. I can seriously see myself being pretty good at programming anything, so becoming successful at that with a great team and coming up with something ingenious enough to make money which shouldn't be that hard with all these opportunities, I guess I can make money trying to entertain the masses. If I ever feel like I'm not doing anything serious enough, that's where I can kick in my interests with studying health.
It would be nice to be successful and finally be able to afford my own place that's even better than my parent's home and to have so much sufficient time. I'll seriously need to expand my portfolio with investing once I can get something going. I might just try to work at being a game programmer and volunteer physician or something like that so I can have something to fall back on in case I ever need money and doing something that I see myself enjoying.
To becoming a doctor while being rich and willing to work for free, I think I'll need an understanding girlfriend or wife to do that. Probably not going to be happening for me and was nice dreaming it, so maybe I'll just be a health nut and try to take classes where I can watch live surgeries take place. I can seriously see myself being pretty good at programming anything, so becoming successful at that with a great team and coming up with something ingenious enough to make money which shouldn't be that hard with all these opportunities, I guess I can make money trying to entertain the masses. If I ever feel like I'm not doing anything serious enough, that's where I can kick in my interests with studying health.
Maturing as a Person
One of my friends is the same age as me and he's pretty juvenile in his thinking and dumb. The side effect with him being dumb though is that from being paranoid, he just ends up avoiding or escaping from possible situations arising. He's a very conflict-adverse type of individual and having this guy around to advise me during my worst moments with that horrible Hope of God church in Los Angeles was like the most annoying thing about him!
He really loves to point out people's faults and do everything in his power to try to cheat the system occasionally when he's in a competitive spirit. Even with that, he can't keep up and do it consistently. This guy just really isn't all that special even with all the work he puts in. He's really at his limits and that's pretty much all there is about him, except try to put up with him now.
I've been really stupid in the past and doing the same thing over and over again. I would try to play poker and then try to justify myself masturbating to porn. I would feel bad in the end obviously. Losing some money and something else that comes from inside of you just isn't a great combination! Boy at the age of 34, I'm starting to rationalize even my own sexuality and trying to make healthy choices. I don't think I'm on my way to becoming a 40 year old virgin though. I think I'll be settling down finally. I'm just making all of these connections.
He really loves to point out people's faults and do everything in his power to try to cheat the system occasionally when he's in a competitive spirit. Even with that, he can't keep up and do it consistently. This guy just really isn't all that special even with all the work he puts in. He's really at his limits and that's pretty much all there is about him, except try to put up with him now.
I've been really stupid in the past and doing the same thing over and over again. I would try to play poker and then try to justify myself masturbating to porn. I would feel bad in the end obviously. Losing some money and something else that comes from inside of you just isn't a great combination! Boy at the age of 34, I'm starting to rationalize even my own sexuality and trying to make healthy choices. I don't think I'm on my way to becoming a 40 year old virgin though. I think I'll be settling down finally. I'm just making all of these connections.
Weird Feeling
I'm under one of those weird feelings right now where I could just go all random and in the end regret it from not getting anything done. I guess I'm going to try to change it around this time with these emotions. What I really love about this blog these days is that it's been really great to just type away and let out all my dirty secrets that's just been bugging me.
Okay, I'm actually a pretty decent guy for standards according to this world. To God's standard, I'm only still standing because of my faith in Jesus. I really do want to walk according to the ways of Christ. I know how that can sound offensive for some people especially if I try to convince them to do the same. Well, it has to all start with having a relationship with God. It isn't about just doing a bunch of do's and dont's.
Looks like for myself, just reading the Bible daily with the commentary by Dr. McGee and going for a verse-by-verse approach and three chapters a day, I'm spending quite a lot of time with trying to understand what the Bible is saying. I've found myself to be really sleepy while reading the Bible as well and it's something I've been doing to try to stay awake with. However, I've noticed a whole big difference with reading the Bible while not being that sleepy and feeling well-rested. It's like the sessions go by a lot smoother and it happened because I was just in my room with really no distractions.
I guess I'm getting a lot better at studying while being myself in my own room. My own personal distractions is pretty much the stuff that goes on in my head and not being in the living room. I guess I have less things to keep me from being distracted. My parents are really quite boring in how they spend they day. They just end up watching TV through the evening and then fall asleep on the couch before retreating into their bedrooms. It's pretty much the same old pretty boring lifestyle. This could probably have been one of the reasons for me to not really try to listen to my parents when they told me to find someone to settle down with.
Okay, I'm actually a pretty decent guy for standards according to this world. To God's standard, I'm only still standing because of my faith in Jesus. I really do want to walk according to the ways of Christ. I know how that can sound offensive for some people especially if I try to convince them to do the same. Well, it has to all start with having a relationship with God. It isn't about just doing a bunch of do's and dont's.
Looks like for myself, just reading the Bible daily with the commentary by Dr. McGee and going for a verse-by-verse approach and three chapters a day, I'm spending quite a lot of time with trying to understand what the Bible is saying. I've found myself to be really sleepy while reading the Bible as well and it's something I've been doing to try to stay awake with. However, I've noticed a whole big difference with reading the Bible while not being that sleepy and feeling well-rested. It's like the sessions go by a lot smoother and it happened because I was just in my room with really no distractions.
I guess I'm getting a lot better at studying while being myself in my own room. My own personal distractions is pretty much the stuff that goes on in my head and not being in the living room. I guess I have less things to keep me from being distracted. My parents are really quite boring in how they spend they day. They just end up watching TV through the evening and then fall asleep on the couch before retreating into their bedrooms. It's pretty much the same old pretty boring lifestyle. This could probably have been one of the reasons for me to not really try to listen to my parents when they told me to find someone to settle down with.
What It Would Mean To Be Rich
Well being rich would mean that I could afford some cool stuff, but I'm obviously going to stay number one over it all. I even value a homeless guy's life over my money to say the truth. Why? Because he's a living and breathing person and he hasn't done anything to me yet so I don't have to judge him so harshly. When it comes to giving him money while he's begging, I'm going to be no, go get a job or just suffer on the streets there asking people to take pity on you. I pity those homeless people so much and in Las Vegas, when an old guy walked up to me to ask for some money to buy himself a short meal, I was like okay. He then ran off in a bicycle. I know that earning five dollars for begging is going to take some work and if he wants to blow it all off on some lotto ticket then good for him if he gets it, but I hope money doesn't end up running his life if he gets back on track.
Having a lot of money and then using it to invest in cool stuff to make even more sounds fun, but it's not worth giving up love. I would love to spend my time also traveling with some great companions too. I could even hook up my friends and family who are so precious to me. There's a lot of great stuff I could do with this resource and I'm glad to be a discerning giver. What I mean by that is I believe that I have been called by God's spirit to be a giver to promote the spreading of the gospel and to also discern the right players in that field.
Yeah, I'm meant to be a rich person because I don't care about comparing myself to others about being wealthy in the first place. I can care less if I had no money as long as I had enough things to do but that's impossible with how this world is running, so I have to play the game too of making myself wealthy in a really smart way so that I won't have to stress out about money and then run away from hot women who are into guys with money.
Looks don't really matter to me when it comes to a relationship but it's definitely going to catch my interest with considering the girl to be my hot wife if she's interested. I think I care about personality 90% and the final touches are about her appearance. If she's decent enough and not going to be fat or just barely meat on the bone, then okay, I can see something promising with an awesome sex life happening!
This is fun to write about and communicate with great friends too. I'm figuring that one girl I know out of all the other female friends is really comfortable about me talking about sex with her. There's another great girl too and she's pretty much like my compatible lover if she didn't have a boyfriend, but I like how I'm great friends with her too so my relationships with gorgeous women might be able to transcend really well and even be flexible.
Having a lot of money and then using it to invest in cool stuff to make even more sounds fun, but it's not worth giving up love. I would love to spend my time also traveling with some great companions too. I could even hook up my friends and family who are so precious to me. There's a lot of great stuff I could do with this resource and I'm glad to be a discerning giver. What I mean by that is I believe that I have been called by God's spirit to be a giver to promote the spreading of the gospel and to also discern the right players in that field.
Yeah, I'm meant to be a rich person because I don't care about comparing myself to others about being wealthy in the first place. I can care less if I had no money as long as I had enough things to do but that's impossible with how this world is running, so I have to play the game too of making myself wealthy in a really smart way so that I won't have to stress out about money and then run away from hot women who are into guys with money.
Looks don't really matter to me when it comes to a relationship but it's definitely going to catch my interest with considering the girl to be my hot wife if she's interested. I think I care about personality 90% and the final touches are about her appearance. If she's decent enough and not going to be fat or just barely meat on the bone, then okay, I can see something promising with an awesome sex life happening!
This is fun to write about and communicate with great friends too. I'm figuring that one girl I know out of all the other female friends is really comfortable about me talking about sex with her. There's another great girl too and she's pretty much like my compatible lover if she didn't have a boyfriend, but I like how I'm great friends with her too so my relationships with gorgeous women might be able to transcend really well and even be flexible.
Making Money the Hard but Fast Way
Basically earning money the fastest way is really going to come from gambling very well. It's really difficult to stay consistent with and it just a total buster to your happiness if you can't keep up with it. One of my crazy friends likes to gamble with Blackjack every once in awhile and is stupid because he thinks he can beat the house without counting cards. What ended up happening is that he would play for hours and one time he was down nearly $800 and came back to break even with it. With that type of swing, he eventually felt that winning at Blackjack didn't even matter because the pattern of gaining money could easily shift over to losing money at any given time.
Gambling is pretty much about getting lucky if it's about winning and it's stupid that people are hooked onto it. Casinos make a living out of taking bored people's money!
For myself, I've come to terms with playing Forex. I don't recommend it for anyone to play and will not even mention how to get started if you ask me. It's pretty much trying to make money on autopilot while putting in the most efficient amount of work. It's pretty cool with all the visual stuff you can do as well because practically in the end, it's all about making a mathematical decision and I'm glad I came across some game changing ideas to add onto my personal style.
Gambling is pretty much about getting lucky if it's about winning and it's stupid that people are hooked onto it. Casinos make a living out of taking bored people's money!
For myself, I've come to terms with playing Forex. I don't recommend it for anyone to play and will not even mention how to get started if you ask me. It's pretty much trying to make money on autopilot while putting in the most efficient amount of work. It's pretty cool with all the visual stuff you can do as well because practically in the end, it's all about making a mathematical decision and I'm glad I came across some game changing ideas to add onto my personal style.
Staying On Track
Well one of the things that I'm starting to notice is that the Bible commentary that I'm reading while trying to commit myself to just three chapters a day can take me longer than two hours. I'm going to have to prepare myself accordingly. What's nuts is that I want to be absolutely at no debt now.
With the income that I'm dragging in now which is only about 75K working as a computer programmer, it's actually not too bad. I know that I can do better or I feel that way. Having a lot of money and being able to make more pretty easily will give me a lot of options then with what to do with my time.
I'm really glad with the life's experiences that I've went through, I still want to make wise decisions, so yeah, I might blow off friend's proposals if I don't see it being lucrative. I also do want to share quite a little amount with getting God's Word out with a well-organized and Bible-believing church. I'm definitely not so hot for Hope of God church in Los Angeles! I'll go visit them and act all funny with them just to give myself laughs now and just not really care about sticking around there. I guess I can do that if I feel like being a troll on some days.
When it comes to focusing on God, they don't play much of a factor for me so I guess it's only natural for me to think negatively of them and place bad reviews about them and scoff at their religious system of beliefs. Yeah, they were church people who went crazy and succumbed over to their flesh. It happens and is quite funny even though I was raging and wanted to be a lunatic with them and control them all to the point that they praise me on Facebook by just having them hit the like button.
Having gone random and talking trash with Oyuri back a little awhile ago, yeah she pretty much bowed out and got fatter as a person. It's annoying that Oyuri looks fat to me, so I messaged her to work out. Yeah, she's pretty much acting really quiet with me and not trying to react. She's in that stage of conflict with me because I totally schooled her and yeah, it feels great that I did that to her!
With the income that I'm dragging in now which is only about 75K working as a computer programmer, it's actually not too bad. I know that I can do better or I feel that way. Having a lot of money and being able to make more pretty easily will give me a lot of options then with what to do with my time.
I'm really glad with the life's experiences that I've went through, I still want to make wise decisions, so yeah, I might blow off friend's proposals if I don't see it being lucrative. I also do want to share quite a little amount with getting God's Word out with a well-organized and Bible-believing church. I'm definitely not so hot for Hope of God church in Los Angeles! I'll go visit them and act all funny with them just to give myself laughs now and just not really care about sticking around there. I guess I can do that if I feel like being a troll on some days.
When it comes to focusing on God, they don't play much of a factor for me so I guess it's only natural for me to think negatively of them and place bad reviews about them and scoff at their religious system of beliefs. Yeah, they were church people who went crazy and succumbed over to their flesh. It happens and is quite funny even though I was raging and wanted to be a lunatic with them and control them all to the point that they praise me on Facebook by just having them hit the like button.
Having gone random and talking trash with Oyuri back a little awhile ago, yeah she pretty much bowed out and got fatter as a person. It's annoying that Oyuri looks fat to me, so I messaged her to work out. Yeah, she's pretty much acting really quiet with me and not trying to react. She's in that stage of conflict with me because I totally schooled her and yeah, it feels great that I did that to her!
Been So Busy
Well I guess I'm officially on vacation now so this is good because I can make plans and carry them out. I understand how time is really precious and that I really do want to get them working. I'm not really that busy actually. I'm just keeping myself occupied and trying to not regret the time that I put into it.
I guess I am really meant to have a personal schedule otherwise I'll just go all over the place and be lost with myself. What's so great is that I have plenty of friends that I care about now and to really go do stuff with. I'm also pretty self-confident with myself and happy about my imperfections being forgiven by the Lord!
Yeah, I think it's about time that I went out and found myself a really good girlfriend. I'm not even heavily influenced by friend's opinions that much anymore. Well, in some cases yes but when it comes to moral issues, then no I'm not influenced by it.
I guess I am really meant to have a personal schedule otherwise I'll just go all over the place and be lost with myself. What's so great is that I have plenty of friends that I care about now and to really go do stuff with. I'm also pretty self-confident with myself and happy about my imperfections being forgiven by the Lord!
Yeah, I think it's about time that I went out and found myself a really good girlfriend. I'm not even heavily influenced by friend's opinions that much anymore. Well, in some cases yes but when it comes to moral issues, then no I'm not influenced by it.
Thursday, December 14, 2017
Art of the Game
From establishing some great friendships with a few beautiful women (yay, finally), I think I can fairly assess how a guy can get a girl. I'm not going to write a book on this because no, I don't want to make money helping really desperate guys who want to have sex with the girl they like. If they talk about approaching to marry them, then that's a different story for me though!
Umm, I think for marriage it's basically establish a bond based off of love that keeps growing stronger with a great relationship and become like best friends and let it be something that just happens naturally over time. Having that sexual flame in the relationship is good too and that's what I want to focus on, but I'm sure it can carry over to dating for those people who want to have sex outside of marriage.
So there's some categories if you want to think of it logically. Like looks department which I totally won't nail but my height hasn't been too poisonous for me these days. People just don't seem to care that much for me specifically. I'm an exception model, an outlier, a lucky person to be jealous of, etc. In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth and all the people who saw me thought this, "Whoa, this guy is short." On the seventh day, God rested for everything he created was good after forming Adam. Longer than seven days passed for me and people who saw me at first are now like, "Whatever, this guy is a total scary piece of machine."
Okay, I managed to figure out how to outplay my own weakness which is the looks department. I just stay nice to all the tall, medium, short, and extra short people. I also work out and trying to grow back my thinning hair which has shown progress and trying to make myself grow taller but maybe only in a millimeter at a time. I also enjoy taking photography which is lucky for me because I care about great images and I want to look appropriate for it so yeah, I like decent clothes that look good and to have all of that hair style and everything to complement my appearance. This is a plus for the ladies because we have something in common to talk about.
There are also strong categories the guy will nail no problem. The guy can be an expert at how to be a jerk for example which will result in so many slaps from the girl. I'm just kidding here. A strong area like maybe making the girl you like laugh is really good too. It seems to open up a gateway to her heart and let that love flow out of her.
There's a really important element and it's obviously attraction. Whether guys listen to me or not, it's going to happen regardless and is natural. I just hope that guys who do find this strong connection with the girl are able to not go right after sex without first marrying the girl. Maybe the girl has some issues or maybe she's the right one but I would just give it some time and talk about how great of a girl she is to everybody. It's only the right thing to do!
With those beautiful female friends I have, I think I do have a connection of attraction with probably about half of them. Why haven't I gone after it then? Those beautiful girls have some compatibility issues for me man! I'll just have to meet some more connections and finally draw myself into the girl I find is right for me.
Umm, I think for marriage it's basically establish a bond based off of love that keeps growing stronger with a great relationship and become like best friends and let it be something that just happens naturally over time. Having that sexual flame in the relationship is good too and that's what I want to focus on, but I'm sure it can carry over to dating for those people who want to have sex outside of marriage.
So there's some categories if you want to think of it logically. Like looks department which I totally won't nail but my height hasn't been too poisonous for me these days. People just don't seem to care that much for me specifically. I'm an exception model, an outlier, a lucky person to be jealous of, etc. In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth and all the people who saw me thought this, "Whoa, this guy is short." On the seventh day, God rested for everything he created was good after forming Adam. Longer than seven days passed for me and people who saw me at first are now like, "Whatever, this guy is a total scary piece of machine."
Okay, I managed to figure out how to outplay my own weakness which is the looks department. I just stay nice to all the tall, medium, short, and extra short people. I also work out and trying to grow back my thinning hair which has shown progress and trying to make myself grow taller but maybe only in a millimeter at a time. I also enjoy taking photography which is lucky for me because I care about great images and I want to look appropriate for it so yeah, I like decent clothes that look good and to have all of that hair style and everything to complement my appearance. This is a plus for the ladies because we have something in common to talk about.
There are also strong categories the guy will nail no problem. The guy can be an expert at how to be a jerk for example which will result in so many slaps from the girl. I'm just kidding here. A strong area like maybe making the girl you like laugh is really good too. It seems to open up a gateway to her heart and let that love flow out of her.
There's a really important element and it's obviously attraction. Whether guys listen to me or not, it's going to happen regardless and is natural. I just hope that guys who do find this strong connection with the girl are able to not go right after sex without first marrying the girl. Maybe the girl has some issues or maybe she's the right one but I would just give it some time and talk about how great of a girl she is to everybody. It's only the right thing to do!
With those beautiful female friends I have, I think I do have a connection of attraction with probably about half of them. Why haven't I gone after it then? Those beautiful girls have some compatibility issues for me man! I'll just have to meet some more connections and finally draw myself into the girl I find is right for me.
What I'm Grateful For
What I'm truly grateful for is that I was given so many opportunities to deal with idiots in the area of personal relationship. Yeah, Chris and Jarred and Lee and cussing Oyuri (by writing only) were really dumb in their actions with me. I really don't care about sharing all the cussing Oyuri did to me and I still kept some of her messages. With the way I'm responding to them now yeah, yes Oyuri is such a dumb ~~~~~~~. Extra special mention goes out to Golf who I want to just say goofball or goofy for a nickname. Oh yeah there's also the infidel pastor Chai too. He really sucks a lot!
Happy seasons to those really dumb brats for all these years! Betty is annoying for a girl with mental problems, but I have to go easy on her. She got so hurt by me that she really destroyed some of her own public computer files on her. I'm not like "Awww too bad", but I have to admit I still can't stop laughing about it and it's only because she acted like a modified ~~~~~~~~~~~. I'm not filling in that blank.
Actually, I believe this is all started because I wanted to be friends with Annie on Facebook and was having trouble opening up. I faced my fears and God gave me a chance to see her again. I didn't want to see Annie and I was surprised that I had the hots for her too! She looked like the same but this time, man what am I thinking she's kind of physically less attractive to me oh. She isn't that bad, but some physical features on her are not eye popping candy or anything like that. It was just me being lame with a stupid crush and feeling guilty about not being able to make friends with her on Facebook, so this caused a cataclysm with all the stupid people I mentioned above.
Last but not least I want to give another rare downer to the one and only lame lady, Lee. She thought she could get away with putting a restraining order on me. Well, she found out it didn't work. I've been threatening her to put another one on me so that I could make fun of her in court. I didn't get a chance because I was so nervous and now that I know the drill, yeah she isn't my first restraining order. I only have two in my life and don't mind another one coming from Lee because I will feel so happy to write a restraining order against Lee in retaliation!
The first time I didn't show up for the case from not caring enough, so I didn't know how it goes. With Lee, I was so nervous about getting fired and all of that jazz. Like sexual harassment issues and stuff, I was ahead of my time already. Anyway, I'm lucky it wasn't that serious and that Lee was just being an angry nut. She was like "You did nothing to me but because you..." and yeah she's not a modified ~~~~~~~~ that I think Betty is.
Oh yeah, another downer shout to the people at Hope of God Church in Los Angeles who unfriended me on Facebook or want to act like they are in denial about it if I come to talk to them about it! Yeah, maybe they really aren't all that pleasant on the inside like the hypocritical and unworthy failures of sinners that they are. I question their loyalty to Jesus!
I'm probably not going to be hammered for all of this. It's a proper channel with what I'm writing and it took years and years of practice with trial and error to finally get this confidence to deal with dumb and uptight people. They are probably just going to stay out of my way and occasionally will find themselves staying quiet or altogether being nice to me because I happen to be "funny" enough even to the most shyest and paranoid or ones who deny they are in denial. Yeah, all the weird pompous people at that church which they are.
Happy seasons to those really dumb brats for all these years! Betty is annoying for a girl with mental problems, but I have to go easy on her. She got so hurt by me that she really destroyed some of her own public computer files on her. I'm not like "Awww too bad", but I have to admit I still can't stop laughing about it and it's only because she acted like a modified ~~~~~~~~~~~. I'm not filling in that blank.
Actually, I believe this is all started because I wanted to be friends with Annie on Facebook and was having trouble opening up. I faced my fears and God gave me a chance to see her again. I didn't want to see Annie and I was surprised that I had the hots for her too! She looked like the same but this time, man what am I thinking she's kind of physically less attractive to me oh. She isn't that bad, but some physical features on her are not eye popping candy or anything like that. It was just me being lame with a stupid crush and feeling guilty about not being able to make friends with her on Facebook, so this caused a cataclysm with all the stupid people I mentioned above.
Last but not least I want to give another rare downer to the one and only lame lady, Lee. She thought she could get away with putting a restraining order on me. Well, she found out it didn't work. I've been threatening her to put another one on me so that I could make fun of her in court. I didn't get a chance because I was so nervous and now that I know the drill, yeah she isn't my first restraining order. I only have two in my life and don't mind another one coming from Lee because I will feel so happy to write a restraining order against Lee in retaliation!
The first time I didn't show up for the case from not caring enough, so I didn't know how it goes. With Lee, I was so nervous about getting fired and all of that jazz. Like sexual harassment issues and stuff, I was ahead of my time already. Anyway, I'm lucky it wasn't that serious and that Lee was just being an angry nut. She was like "You did nothing to me but because you..." and yeah she's not a modified ~~~~~~~~ that I think Betty is.
Oh yeah, another downer shout to the people at Hope of God Church in Los Angeles who unfriended me on Facebook or want to act like they are in denial about it if I come to talk to them about it! Yeah, maybe they really aren't all that pleasant on the inside like the hypocritical and unworthy failures of sinners that they are. I question their loyalty to Jesus!
I'm probably not going to be hammered for all of this. It's a proper channel with what I'm writing and it took years and years of practice with trial and error to finally get this confidence to deal with dumb and uptight people. They are probably just going to stay out of my way and occasionally will find themselves staying quiet or altogether being nice to me because I happen to be "funny" enough even to the most shyest and paranoid or ones who deny they are in denial. Yeah, all the weird pompous people at that church which they are.
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