Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Maturing as a Person

One of my friends is the same age as me and he's pretty juvenile in his thinking and dumb. The side effect with him being dumb though is that from being paranoid, he just ends up avoiding or escaping from possible situations arising. He's a very conflict-adverse type of individual and having this guy around to advise me during my worst moments with that horrible Hope of God church in Los Angeles was like the most annoying thing about him!

He really loves to point out people's faults and do everything in his power to try to cheat the system occasionally when he's in a competitive spirit. Even with that, he can't keep up and do it consistently. This guy just really isn't all that special even with all the work he puts in. He's really at his limits and that's pretty much all there is about him, except try to put up with him now.

I've been really stupid in the past and doing the same thing over and over again. I would try to play poker and then try to justify myself masturbating to porn. I would feel bad in the end obviously. Losing some money and something else that comes from inside of you just isn't a great combination! Boy at the age of 34, I'm starting to rationalize even my own sexuality and trying to make healthy choices. I don't think I'm on my way to becoming a 40 year old virgin though. I think I'll be settling down finally. I'm just making all of these connections.