Making Some Plans

Well, if someone comes across this idea that I'm throwing out there, I'm sure it's someone else has but no one has got to it yet. Maybe, I'll be the one to go do it, but I'll mention that I have. I would really like to do a virtual reality game with high quality graphics and design something like guitar hero to go with it. It would just be cool to play in your favorite band and to be able to visualize a crowd that is yelling and it would fun to see flying notes and to try to them accurately. It would amazing really and I would love to.

I also want to design a practical app for storing my stuff and recalling them from a website and using my phone as an app to keep track of all the stuff I have in possession. It would most definitely be awesome, so I think I'll be going after doing that.

I think prayer is really helping me a lot to prep up for where I need to be headed, but with my mind about to crash like it is again, I think I'm going through my peak hours. Hey I'm just throwing out there that I think my gaming hours were probably from me trying to distract myself from watching pornography. I have to admit that I like to peak at female nudity in the form of mainstream movie actresses. They look great and I wish I had a wife like that to make some great love to. Oh well, it's just fantasizing and even though I've got better over the years with handling on meeting pretty friends and letting go of falling in love with them, I'm doing a whole lot better.

One thing I've noticed is that porn stars really take a lot and I mean so much. It's like for a few years they are on the rise and then after awhile, their popularity starts to decline. It's how the human mind works and this one TED talk revealed how men have this mindset of how the hormones will lower itself with familiarity and then rise again to another high after coming across a new, attractive stimulus.

I've been fortunate to not pay with my credit card to look at porn or buy any adult material. That's why I tried to binge on free porn for awhile and enjoy it like it's a luxury. Well, that stage has passed and I'm trying to use it as a substitute occasionally to subdue my desires to have sex. Overall, who am I really to complain but I think it's morally wrong for me. I must be having trouble controlling my own urges, but then again I do have a Napoleon complex and I just keep forgetting I have one.