Tuesday, March 6, 2018

Turning It Around

Well this is going to be hard- I'm going to be furthering myself with practicing celibacy while being single. This will mean no engaging in fornication nor masturbation. I guess I'm not going to be able to help it if I feel sexually aroused, but I would love to practice self-control and not turn to masturbating to porn. The way I feel I can accomplish this is to turn my life around all for Jesus.

This means that I'm going to have to accept a drop in my personal ego and admit defeat with some areas that I want to pride myself in getting better. One of the things I want to be great at is being able to sexually please the woman who I end up marrying and lasting long enough for her to enjoy it. The thought of that actually wants me to keep going back to practice more with masturbation! I really should just let it go and admit personal defeat from being humble. I don't even have that temptation yet with a girl because I haven't really madly fallen in love with anyone.

I think I also need to start making the effort to plug myself into the tasks I personally analyzed and wrote out. I should just give it a chance and see how it goes before I decide to boot it again later on. So basically, I'm looking to do:

personal hygiene
trade or trade-related programming
cook
work out
plan social events and go to them
editing photos and videos for social media

I'm going to need to just be completely dedicated to make this happen daily.