Honestly, I'm a guy and the fact that I had porno on my mind and ended up not seeing anything even though I attempted and then just fell asleep with the laptop on my bed, I can say I got away with that one. There's a video on there that I fantasize I can enjoy someday, and I'm being honest with a great big smile on my face! Hey at least it isn't illegal and it's just plain fun even if it would not be interesting to others and just myself. If I crave it again like I did yesterday, I'm going to try looking for the right girl.
It's just going around and constantly looking for attractive and single women and getting to know them and then trying to pick someone who I like and is available to take out. It's hard because I don't really bring in that much game, but it's fun to still hang out and gain the experience I need from being friends with these ladies. I might as well start actively searching on those free or cheap dating sites, and I guess spending a little on there to send someone like a virtual rose for grabbing her attention won't hurt my pocket so much.
Overall, I think my personal concerns of not being tall, rich, or good looking enough is going to play some factor with attracting the ladies I'm into. I'll keep working on those things while looking for the right girl so that she'll enjoy them once I can obtain them. My issue with dating is probably on the level of just needing enough of the proper looks which I don't have enough of, but I can pack enough of a punch to send a statement and abuse the heck out of what I was already born with. It's just going to require a lot of personal effort with staying patient and confident while laboring after my moments I long for someday.
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