Ever since implying on this blog about how I'm a couch potato from letting myself get sucked into harem-comedy anime, I have let up on it quite a bit and even better at not letting myself view porno either. Honestly, it's got pretty boring and I would rather long for the real thing after getting married to a nice chick! I guess that's where I have all this confusion set in place for me like stressing out at work trying to figure out the answer while being diligent best as possible.
I have this little issue with myself so far where I can't double down for the day. What I mean is I can't brush my teeth twice, wash my face twice, and remember twice to do something as a routine. I can get it out of the way in the morning, but at night, I'm battling feelings of being exhausted and it's so easy to watch something that's funny while being tired so that's what I've been doing. I'm going to have to learn to be resilient even while being tired and this is pretty much my step that I would have to succeed in.
I believe my ego is a whole lot better than unusual and I feel like I could do a lot- always. It's time to figure it out and live out my life to the fullest because I want to be this way from having the ego. I guess if I was forced into living a few years from having cancer or anything- I might end up wasting away my life from trying to play video games and eating delicious food all day as long as my body could take it. If this is my ideal life, then I know something is wrong with me so I might as well do something else instead because there's this guilt factor underneath me that always tries to get me. I would rather be happy then feeling regretful so I'm going to have to get to work and hopefully enjoy what I accomplished while making a lot of cash and the girl of my dreams wanting to do anything with me! It sounds like a beautiful and awesome life to me, so I want to find out if it is.
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