Rules Of Engagement

Okay, I'm starting a new post- I'm getting pretty close to 365 mark with posts now. If I go a little over next month, then I'm taking a day off so I stay at 365! It should be a leap year in the next 2 years, then I will do 366 posts.  I didn't know that a leap year existed until some grade in elementary.

Right now, I'm going to look for doing a temporary job to do during the weekends. I really hate driving, giving customer service, and computer jobs right now because I'd rather work on things that interest me and not just for all the money; I don't want to spend so much money unless I'm following my heart because I don't have that much to invest right now. 

Aside from a sick road that I could take which I won't mention, I do like teaching or fixing stuff for a job. That's it, to build some more bankroll for my business, I could do the trades that I like during the week and then work part-time during the weekends (F-Sun) with stuff that interest me. I'm a church goer because I need to have that spiritual encouragement so if not Sunday, then there's another day of the week I could attend church because I go to a big one anyway.

Exploring Interests Part 3 (grand finale)

Okay this continuation is now getting boring. This is just like any of my other posts; it just rubs off of you later even though it seems pretty cool to discover something and then create laughs for a little bit. All right, I'm pretty much ready to end this title now and move on to another topic. I seem to have a backtracking potential in my thoughts so much that it bugs the heck out of my mom, who positions herself to liking to forget about bad things that happened. I actually journey into my subconscious brain and in my way can do self-hypnotizing which is sweet because I'll find myself becoming Batman the next day- just kidding. The stuff I recall way back in my flashback is like motivation to relax and go into a state of hypnosis; I am sometimes like this while talking and then when someone yells at me, I'm like "WRAHH!" back at them and they pretend to get all nonchalant while I just keep talking and don't give them any more chances to say something. Yes, I know how to be witty or whatever the goodness I feel like doing with people no matter how confused they become now. The major prevention technique is to just be honest, even if you want to call yourself a jerk from stating the fact about yourself.

Okay, I'm starting to hate watching T.V. which is similar to a bigamist hating very attractive and sweet women-  I like those types of women, don't get me wrong, I'm just starting to hate the 50-inch HDTV flat-screen with high quality stereo (expensive Bose speakers that are projected all over the living room). It also features a comfortable couch that you can sleep on, if the wife wishes to oust you from your bedroom (about an 8-footer in length).  Sure, there are times when the World Series, World Cup, World Olympics, World Superbowl, etc. occur on T.V. which is like where everyone is glued onto there. The Bible mentions about people sticking their noses up to the world by watching it on T.V. during the apocalyptic times. Sure, the news will break out all of a sudden when another forest fire creates mayhem and panic with the Americans.

On and on and on... yes ... I'm so boring...

I think it's better to get lost in a video game world then watch a dumb rerun on a fashion channel. Man those guys who fight to stay alive on the discovery channel is something that I want to do, if I have a rocket pack strapped behind me, so I'll exit and be "Sayonara" to the headshrinkers err indigenous people. I'm learning to become a rich -bleep- -bleep- yes all you jealous types, I'm putting my head into the game and participating because you don't want to do it. I'm making a living out of counter-trends where I watch the economy swing high to low and vice verse and just watch time fly by at the comfort of my home. It's pretty much capitalizing on a timed cycle, so that means I get to share in making profits during the fun and bad times with the whole wide world. Now, that's flexibility and getting a piece of the pot.

Exploring Interests Part 2

Growing up hasn't really been that rough on me actually- I was more like a hypochondriac ha ha because of those panic attacks occurring from trying to get good grades and please my grandpa or parents who sort of influenced me to do it for being successful and happy. I really owe some credit to my grandpa; he really wanted his nephews to study hard and become a doctor.

I remember this guy who was a paraplegic talking about how he wanted his kids to do nothing but study, and I was like didn't you not study that hard and mess around too much; in a way, it seems to be so hypocritical which makes it hard to influence a child to push himself to excellence. My mom was pretty much the same way too and seems to have been pretty lazy about studying or had some type of depression in her life that caused her to not succeed that well. She grew up as a tom boy and felt her place in time was a little unfortunate.

Becoming a doctor would seriously be a lot of hard work and something that I would take pride in doing. I was just lacking in confidence to do things and with whatever I set my mind out to doing, I eventually got around to finding out a way to get it done. Striving is such a wonderful force to encompass. Now that I think about it, I believe that my grandpa just wanted all of his favorite grandsons to grow up to be compassionate and diligent adults- I was one of his favorite too and probably the most loved by him.

I'm grateful that I've managed to become older with a head on my shoulders- I'm still at a beautiful and young period in my life. I wish I could keep it steady with what I have and eventually, all people are going to have to make some difficult decisions no matter how weird they are and try to annoy you about it. I play like I could seriously be the X-factor or even be the guy who can't be relied upon but well-liked at the same time. I have the ability to do whatever I want and get away with it without ever being seen as evil even though some of it is not recommended for regular people.

There are so many choices to make in my life. I'm really glad I also found a higher calling dealing with establishing relationships- it's going to be vital in my walk; there's a woman who I truly admire and see her as a close sister still which is really healthy for me. I hope to marry an attractive girl someday at this nice church I attended when I was first introduced to sharing and my favorite cousin who was an aggressive joker- I used to whack him on the stomach probably hoping he wouldn't get fatter than me even though he is now; hey, I was fat too growing up; I thought it was so cool too. I would wrestle with my weight and prey on lighter friends and play so sick to probably make them cry- I made a bigger boy than me cry once. He also made me cry too so we're even. I will continue this again tomorrow.

Exploring Interests

I'm just calling this one a goal searching or brain storming post. One of my major problems that I have is not having enough self-control internally and just losing it all together. This issue has been getting fixed on its own through me being aware of it and also accepting it as a weakness- I no longer feel this anxiety, which is temporary at the wrong time, that leaves me feeling powerless and unassertive.

T.V. is just feeling so repetitive for me now- movies are a little better for me to enjoy occasionally. It must be from seeing a lot of cartoons and reruns as part of my routine unwittingly. Some smart people in the culture with some alluring, intellectual style are mentioning that the news is better stated in writing.

If I'm going to follow my heart, I just want to continuously make jokes now and goof off on this blog. I'm also being honest because I really needed to practice it and paying for a psychiatrist is going to be too much money. I asked a weird person who has his angry moments, Jarred Daniel Taing, over at Hope of God Church- he must be like "Whoa, hey... what the" but he really was being weird if I tell the whole story which I don't mind doing in front of his face and everybody listening- I'm also going to defend myself if he loses himself so he's going to straight to jail in the end- I mean to say it as a figure of speech in literal terms. I don't want to bust out a martial arts kick that will leave him breathless because he doesn't work out- so I asked Jarred for some money to go see a psychiatrist because he kept on aggravating me to go see one and the cheap guy was asking me about if I had any insurance. They were being cheap and annoying and yet trying to remain really corny with me. Oh well, he was just not being a good person at the moment. I think it's going to affect his decisions when he becomes a parent someday, if he ever gets that far with himself. It's also good to relax in life, so parenting someone like himself could be very likely for him to do if he wants to.

Okay, nothing to hide absolutely for me. Let's see I've been going back and forth with this whole truck driving incident to make some money. I do have a passion for the road and wouldn't mind sharing it with a partner which is what some driver professionals do. It's also profitable and better than doing nothing at the house all day. I've been successful with my investment choices so far and haven't wasted a lot on the ones that weren't going to cut it compared to others. I've been pretty much middle of the road in paying for fast tracking myself to making profits, and I'm making a decent amount of cash so far hardly doing anything right now.

I'm on a bust with lack of cash in the short term right now- being a truck driver would obviously solve that and put money in my pocket to store up for making more looser and profitable investments. Two things are really keeping me from settling down right now- lack of financial stability and lack of confidence in my appearance (I want to make myself grow taller, which seems too impossible but I still frolic around with in my research and exercises). These issues are pretty much what I'm going at right now in solving and so truck driver could seriously be a boring task and make me feel like burning up inside. My life in settling down deals with me being successful and I'm the type whose going to commit himself to never looking back if I don't do it. I will continue sharing my thoughts on this same matter tomorrow.

Growing Up

A large part of growing up seems to be what stimulates our minds. I wish I was largely stimulated from reading books, ha ha. I was usually forcing upon myself to read a book to just study and never got the hang of it for reading just for fun. I realize that I have bought a lot of books related to what I thought would be fun, but then the thoughts of reading a book kick in, and it gets hard again to finish a boring book and sort of wonder if I should have bought the book. Oh well, I don't seem to have that problem anymore and think it was just pressure on myself to get to financial stability.

Out of this longing for financial stability, I have found something that requires little time to be highly productive. If you can guess what it is, then you are a really smart and rare breed to the world. Knocking that anxiety off from working on something I actually really enjoy developing on and establishing a profitable business has been fun. I get more time to socialize which is pretty nice and might contribute to meeting someone who could be right for me in settling down with. I remember when being part of a quasi-spiritual group (San Gabriel caregroup at Hope of God Church, L.A.) was all fun and okay, this one cute person whose not part of the group said that it's about realizations- I was like wow, that's really simple and concise. In a supporting way, I believe that growing up is about getting into realizations. The weirdness or craziness factor that some people have from thinking like losers is something that I'm always going to be a part of, and I never thought I would create a useful tension with these women, which I'm not really giving any thought into chasing anymore. I am definitely not chasing after that Annie Tran or Darunee Lee Wongstapdat (LOL) lady over at the same church. About Betty, I'm actually more open to showing her some compassion- looks like she could use it now because I sort of see where her vibe is at; maybe getting just one cup of coffee with her would be something not so ordinary and could be an experience that might leave me laughing a lot over. In a way, I wonder if Betty is thinking like she's waiting on me even though she's not really my type but she's hot and I'm okay with being friends. Darunee Lee really hated it when I said something like Betty was hot and accused me of struggling with sex- funny now that I think about it even though it's still aggravating to figure out where she was taking it.  

Comfortable Being Me

I've finally found out that through all the trials I've been through, I'm still going to be me now- just that I'm going to be more prepared than ever and just up for anything now. I'm ready to handle these repeated negative situations that go against me. I'm ready to handle some favors for people too and to execute them soundly. I can go through all of this now even with all these annoyances going through my head. I'm still in total disagreement with those bad people I talked about who were also being weird; I know how to deal with them accordingly now in a humane matter, so no worries because they are going to be even more scared how they portray themselves to others, after I'm finished with them.

I'm learning to be more attentive yet again now. The downward feeling of reading a boring book is something I'm going to have to deal with. Maybe, I could take it by knowing that the subject interests me and to read it in little amounts or read up on something that I might really be good at to keep it flowing better. I no longer feel the burden of writing messed up sentences, ha ha. I have the confidence that I need to portray myself the way I want to be presented.

I'm finding myself interested in a lot of things with some that I've pushed aside hoping to hop on board with it again later. I'm not really sure how I'm going to balance out my time with being a family man, right now. What I know for sure is that I should be abstaining from viewing alluring or steamy adult content for my pleasure now because an average person could find that to be cheating in a relationship. I'm not committed to anyone in that sexual area, ha ha right now. It may be a good start to abstain from those things and learn to deal with keeping my testosterone levels in check. I would like to be a responsible adult in all areas now. So, I guess I'm all about being Mr. Responsible right now. That's not that bad- even though it seems a little cocky. I like the confident feeling to it.

Separating Outward vs Inward

Being human gives us the privileges of having private thoughts while we are going through our daily living. Whether people annoy you with something and how nicely you decide to respond to it becomes sort of like an adventure still. What I mean is that, sometimes what we think is actually not happening in reality and that's where we can be brave and man up to a weird circumstance or just play more rough without having to feel bad about anything during that moment in space.

I get annoyed a lot over little things all the time- like people taking me off of their Facebook page after adding me or not wanting to add me if I know them. I might as well get around to doing it too now and just continuously talk about it with the person who I did it to just to have some fun. Even though I'm annoyed a lot or feel like being the first one to yell, there are measures I can take in communicating and still come up on top over the problem. It doesn't matter whether they oblige with me or not but I do know they are going to look pretty bad with others, if I communicate with them and they just go all out in a nasty direction. This means the only solution for them is to come around and that's how it's going to look, so I use some smartness in letting this occur for myself, and they have to go through square one again. I can communicate really clearly and know what I'm saying even though I'm mad; I had some practice with doing this and to get into tune with it- it took a lot of timing and still takes giving into some humility. I can actually talk normally even though I'm exploding inside and can do this on a consistent basis. I don't ever have to feel disparaged with anyone for whatever reason because I'm on the case already anyway.

This makes things so easy now because the people who blocked me on Facebook were actually being bad people. I really want to show a lot of compassion for Betty Lam (Hope of God Church, L.A.- lots of Betty Lam's are already settled down) because she's not really my type but she tried to open up with me- even though she had some moments of going overboard, I think those characteristics are common with older women who haven't really settled down yet. Betty is really hot too but I don't want to envision myself going on an intimate journey with her; I know I could have a shot if I tried but she's just not for me. In Betty's moments, there's a way to talk to her to calm her down and what it requires is really talking to her. Darunee, the evil lady at the time, wanted me to avoid talking to her because she didn't want me to engage in a relationship with Betty. Maybe she was feeling some of that tension with me too and I was repulsed about going with Darunee Lee too. I'm a short guy, even though some friends have told me that I'm not that bad looking- I have moments of being messy, yet I make people laugh hard sometimes. Height really doesn't matter in a relationship with some women because you can easily change their minds by making them feel comfortable- it's just a height complex that can go away with age. I read that this one lady said that when she got older, she just didn't care about how people looked as long as they displayed confidence and those normal characteristics we all want to be around. Betty denied all wrong doing that I ever did and yet, they couldn't pay attention to her feelings- what a friend they are. Betty seemed to be pretty open about asking me out and I could have gone there if I wanted to; maybe, I'll do that with her because I did talk about her the nicest and I was being blunt at the same time. Maybe I'll get some coffee with her and work on those feelings of dating a taller girl- I don't care how much taller she is, she's still taller than me and that's a little yeah, uncomfortable for me. I'm going to have to deal with that and separate it with confidence and establish a closer friendship with her and see how different it is then being around other cool guys. I am actually larger in proportion compared to Betty and most girls in other areas including strength or possibly cranium size (it feels a little cheesy to have a large head stuck on a smaller body than you ever imagined), so maybe it balances out with how I talk to them.

I know there's someone out there for me on my search and that I'm only getting warmer each time I meet some more people. There was this one cute girl I met, and I wish I had her phone number; man, I wish I went to go see a movie with her. She was open to it even though I was feeling really shy underneath and ready to explode if she blew me off; yet, I was willing to take the risk. Oh well. Nowadays, I don't seem to care if a girl doesn't want to date me and that there are really good people out there anyway that I can look forward to dating. Anyway, the bad people I talked about were in an accusative state and yet, I'm still not in trouble with the law. Of course, I'm not going to be in trouble because I was doing things that were similar to their behaviors anyway. They were just adding a lot of tension into a normal and acceptable routine. These people are the ones I mentioned from last month. They are probably going to try to act like it's old news or something, but honestly, it's pretty bad for them because I know how to play rough and still get away with it. They are going to be under some pressure and all of this is stuff they put on themselves. I have the upper hand. If they want to test me, then they are really going to get it. I really know how to communicate and somehow, get some of those people with bad moments to redirect their mind on something else with me around. In a way, it's my space and preference that I love to establish no matter what I'm feeling inside.

Withstanding the Pressure

This is pretty much similar to the other blog post, "Getting Rid of That Discombobulating Feeling." I find myself talking to myself, and I really want to stop this behavior and be able to handle the situation more gracefully now. I'm pretty much grateful that I can look forward to more problems because I couldn't really live without them anyway. I seem to do better if I struggle on something and that's where the Lord really fits into my lifestyle by trying to get me to turn away from my sins.

Throughout days and moments, I get these thoughts in my head which could equate to a similar level of post-traumatic stress disorder ha ha. Actually, I think it's a lot less in level of seriousness but fun to mention for myself. It pretty much takes commitment and just going at it on a consistent basis, like you're bothering someone to get to a level of success. I think it's really important to be in tune with our desires and not to really give into any seducing evil spirits.

This is going to take some time to withstand the pressure ha ha. If kids are actually on this blog, then maybe they should get some permission from their parents before they read some adult-related comments. Ha ha. I'll try to keep this G-rated but to cover all the meat and be fully blunt about myself, I would say that I could imply X-rated things. The stuff I talked about last month dealing with the weird gang was me being me fully and hiding nothing- not bad one would say, right?

Okay, if you are a teenager then might as well prepare yourself to be away from adult material and not let that influence you most of the times ha ha because it will be healthy and help you generate living out your desires if you seek to get some sexual excitement early- I mean to say about copulating after getting married. I'm going to admit that I have a large base of testosterone and don't ask me where I got it from. I want to work out and be so active and gain muscle and live out being content physically, mentally, and spiritually. I could brush aside slightly below average women with looks and those good-looking ones who already are committed because I have a bunch of them who are my friends, and I am happy for them too! Taking off the pressure among weird people who are being sinister with me is so much easier now and I shall get around to doing that.  

Remembering Some Things

I'm just really bored with wanting to type anything because I pretty much wrote I needed to put on here and because I'm already satisfied with what I used this blog for. Anyway, I'm just maintaining it by just writing away with another post. I'm pretty trying to average one post a day so by the end of this year I'm going to have written 365 boring posts on this blog. Woopi! Furthermore, some weird people think I'm going to do something on this blog, and they go on to read it like a hawk. If you find my blog entertaining, then thanks for just reading.

Okay, I am pretty much trying to get some exercise in daily. I'm stretching everyday also and seeing if those growth methods work. I don't care if I stay short or shrink now because my body is what is and I'm trying to keep it growing still at the age of being under thirty- that's all I really want to say right now. I'm accepting of my balding or never getting any taller; yet, I'm trying to prevent myself from getting there. I'm also trying to read the Bible daily, too; regardless of how big of a sinner I am. I'm still setting up a reliable income stream for myself. I'm on the verge of becoming so confident now that I could take on raising a family. I'm not going to say much about my dating life on this blog so much to the chagrin of the public looking at this blog, I don't really care. Pretty much last year was so interesting for me that I finally lived out what I needed to put on this blog that the unique experience was very much appreciated and including the people who unwittingly played in a role in my life by acting like my sister who was in a crazed, weird, and angry emotional state and making up exaggerated comments about me, which was fun to ridicule and for finally getting a hold of myself. 

This post should be more about my pathetic daily life and how I manage it to make myself happy despite the super amount of aggravation these people fed me with. I'm pretty much going to experience more research in making myself improve on this scene of scaling my business bigger. If I become a rich dude, am I going to be a rich jerk? I predict that I probably will try not to because money is easy to burn with fire and only interesting but naughty people worship money to the full extent. Money just helps alleviate some situations that it would help solve for some problem, so I think I'm gifted in that area of solving problems- pretty much, money will probably never really be an issue for me and that I will kick out people who try to take advantage of others after trying to suck money out of me. Hopefully, I will never have to worry about being a boss to these aggravating people and I will not have to go out of my way to feel really sorry for them and then offer them a great job. If I do, I will be happy if they do poorly because I will fire them and make sure I keep all records of how they did bad professionally and laugh about it in private daily or maybe if they try to run for office against me then maybe I'll have an edge over them. 

Finally Understand My Side

Writing on this blog about some incident that bothered the heck out of me regarding myself with some people has been helpful for me. Yes, obviously if I had a boss who wanted to fire me and then got around to doing that, I could really make him out to be a total jerk and money hogging scrooge. That being said, this blog is pretty much my personal space that I have opened up to the world; unlike, some weird people who have a Facebook and can't open themselves up with me- they should have even never had a Facebook page to begin with. Anyway, coming to an understanding has been a little easier and acting out of what I believe in has been a lot more smoother without me violating anyone.

I'm going to cover something that may be normal, and it still affects a lot of people because they just don't know how to get over it yet. It's related to a small story that got caught up in my head and now it's ready to be released into what I'm writing. Let's see, I remember the incident like yesterday ha ha. I feel like someone who wants to be in opposition wants to like come over and break my computer, so I can't write anything bad about them. Anyway, I have something that is good, and they don't want to deal with it because they want to be really immature about it. Yeah, sure. I'm pretty positive about it, so let's finish what I meant to convey.

It's been a long while since I brought up my feelings about Annie Tran over at Hope Church L.A. ( if she still attends there which I'm not certain about); it was very weird and that's how I said it in the past on my blog. I guess it will put a smile on my face if I review this later, so I'll continue. One day I wrote a private message on Facebook intended for Annie about how she looked cute while she was wearing a sun dress and sun glasses with a smile (it looked a little corny), and I was fighting these aggressive urges of chasing after her because I just didn't feel something was right. I said something like that to my sister one time, and she responded highly positively. When I told Annie that she sometimes appears attractive, she also liked it too. Hey, giving occasional compliments never really hurt. When she responded to me sort of quiet, it made me feel like she was really trying to torment me. Annie didn't accept me as a friend and put me on ignore; I thought she knew me or something and I didn't do anything to her so I was baffled here for a moment. I tried again and then the third time, I left her a message basically asking her "What's wrong?" Annie then blocked me on Facebook. This made me sort of mad because she was sort of being weird with me on Facebook. It's been awhile for me to now realize that she may have not been fully in control with something she desired in her life.

After this incident, I felt it was a little inappropriate to ask her about her private life and dating because that's just not me at the time who goes up to girls and makes a run for them. I was pretty nervous because this is something that happened to me for the first time, and the incident was so rare to me that I didn't know how to go about it. I basically did something that would typically be considered gross if you were a kid, but I did it in a mature grown-up style, I wrote a poem about her saying there's something about Annie that makes me feel she isn't attractive- it's true because the actions of a person do make them appear sometimes not so beautiful. I was hopeful that she would be coming around- this is sort of ironic because Chris Kuch (same church), someone whose not really a master of wit, told me that Annie was praying for me to come around. I was like whoa, she's praying for me? Anyway it was out of the wrong context with my case and the poem just caused a ripple and domino effect into more unfamiliar territory- Chris Kuch, Jarred Taing, Annie, Betty, Darunee, Golf, and Chai all started acting weird with me and so out of character. It's something they shouldn't do in general especially if they consider themselves a Christian. 

The solution overall is to talk to them about it bluntly and this was something I was shy about (what if they said they didn't like me?) - Darunee Lee was acting in high interest with me about something and she was just trying to control me. It isn't wrong to encourage talking genuinely and put some faith and trust in that. This also represents that the girls may not really be who they are really cut out to be if they can't handle socializing at a deeper level with a man. This is pretty much what I'm going to conclude with Annie- I was feeling for her but then again, in the end I'm like it's probably better not to. I need to ask Annie if she thought I was coming onto her really aggressively- oh yeah, I did ask Annie one time just that I forgot. She said, no. She then accepted me in being a friend so technically, it would lead to her unblocking me from Facebook if I wanted her to. The apology from her would probably be downplayed and if I kept on bringing it up I would get one from her if I really wanted it. The same applies with Betty and then Jarred. Jarred is a guy and he has mentioned that he could be a coward sometimes, so he was being really timid and couldn't man up to my own beliefs and just blocked me on Facebook. I put him on the spot privately on the phone once and he's like "Let's move on?" in a question- I'm like, not so fast and he's like "I have to go, I'm going to hang up." I think Jarred could seriously turn and be sort of attracted to me, if I wanted him to but no. The weird thing that I have to mention which is also a benefit for me is that Darunee Lee didn't block me on her facebook when I said that we're facebook buddies on my anti-restraining order petition. I submitted to her request of not talking to her or contacting her with the judge going like ("Sir, wish the best of luck") which is really easy for me because it's a peace of mind for me. Darunee was just plain ugly to me in that she was being so bossy.  Fun is right around the corner for me now, and if they are still there maybe they should consider packing and leaving a struggling church to be a leader elsewhere. I'm going to be there and clear up this mess which is so easy for me now, even if it involved cops or the pastor being weird with me- I'm sure he would hold a pitchfork along with a mob if that was considered to be good to society and the norm.

Lots of Resources

The reason why I make this boring post is because I realize that there is a lot of information out there to help you obtain what you're looking for. I figure that fulfilling some desires are probably better left alone until for later, like experiencing sex in marriage - ha ha. A pastor said that the best thing to do for the wife is to show her life and affection; I am in agreement- that's a great way to show love. Now, my mind is like getting more wired to stay away from the weird stuff more now and to really make a lot of progress. I think I should just leave those desires of being in an intimate relationship alone for now because it could come in handy later and serve as a great motivation for me to even be more hard working. I'm pretty sleepy right now, so it's time to call it a night.  

Using Bible To Help Guide Me

Acts 9:31 says The church then had peace throughout Judea, Galilee, and Samaria, and it grew in strength and numbers. The believers were walking in the fear of the Lord and in the comfort of the Holy Spirit.

The Bible gives details that the early church was associated with doing miracles and attracting many people to be believers. Leaders of other religious sects were plotting to murder influential evangelists of Christ. Acts 7:60 says And he fell to his knees, shouting, "Lord, don't charge them with this sin!" And with that, he died.

Honestly, I feel like the majority of young adults and two pastors at the Hope of God Church in Los Angeles were missing the mark. They became restless and enraged by making so many complaints over things that shouldn't really be a bother. They said that they had the patience but really didn't because I was being in a way myself, and they were okay with it. They only said that to try to force me to change into their ideology.

They were emphasizing so much on their own personal wit, rather than living out what the Spirit of the Lord would want them to carry out. They were like lost sheep and totally trying to live out in being an enemy to Jesus without really knowing it. I don't seem to really mind thinking about these intractable and corrupted decisions that are part of the heart when they are trying to enforce good will now. I really see it and can actually have fun with them since it's part of a social atmosphere which I know I can heavily influence for something cool!

Overall, I really don't know if I do want them part of my Facebook family, LOL. They chose to give into their misfit attitude and weird ideology and don't know if they can snap out of it. I don't really want to be around people who only want to drag you down, but I also know how to have fun with them and seriously, cripple their desires to do bad things to others. They aren't that big in personality and not that well-known in this world; they are just a bunch of baby Christians among others who want to live in a world with complacency.

Getting Rid Of That Discombodulating Feeling

For a time being with whatever I do, I sometimes feel a little nervous about things. Like trying to learn to drive a school bus or truck under pressure, it was pretty nerve-wrecking. I really didn't like it but I tried and try I may have, I really scared a lot of the people riding in the truck with me. It's really funny because I wasn't laughing at the time; I was just still in that nervous mode. I was with that nervous feeling at the time of weird people considering on giving me a restraining order- in fact, two of them filed a restraining order against me. I'm not really that dependent on them, and I was feeling that way because of this whole nervous feeling inside of me.

Getting over this anxiety took some time. I took upon mastering the art of being self-honest and hanging on to whatever you wanted to work on. It dealt with getting over the fear of anticipating the disappointment of others and myself. I tried fighting it with sadness on my end, anger the next end, and humor on another spectrum. What worked for me was just being honest with myself. Honesty has been contributing a lot to helping me out with my patience. I realize that my desires are super strong so having a letdown is like a temporary situation for me; I wish to be dedicated and pretty charming, along with living out my desires fully. What it takes is, just living with the situation to the best of your ability and just continuously striving to make it out there.    

Satisfaction Being Reached

Acts 5:29 says But Peter and the apostles replied, "We must obey God rather than human authority."

I still remember what Darunee Lee Wongstapadat told me that she and some people at Hope of God Church were ordained by God to be leaders and that I should be submitting to their authority. Yeah, it felt fishy at the time; we see that even the disciples of Jesus living out in their faith and rejoicing over even being punished by the jealous leaders of Jerusalem back at that time.

It was a lot of weird wording that they put into it, so yeah they did end up pushing me around. Oh and by the way, I'm not in trouble with the law too. They were just acting out of frustration over being so ignorant with each other. They were so not into the Bible at the time and were about something else bothering their situation. They're actually flesh driven and not really holy people; obviously, they have some stronger morals than possibly the loosest person but still the evil that took over them is now evident with me.

Now, I realize the weirdness of people and how they are actually getting me to laugh about it. Whatever I was going through, I snapped out of it so I'm going to be okay for now on. I'm still going to have problems that I'll be experiencing and pretty annoying ones too but what can I do about them. I really have some strong desires and so I don't really feel so left down anymore if something isn't going to work out. At least I can reach an acceptable compromise with the situation.

Gaining One Hour

It was pretty nice to change the clock back. Normally, this is a pretty bad time for some businesses because they are going to suffer in the east. With winter coming around the corner, I figure just waiting outside with a concession stand at Central Park in New York is going to be cold and just slow business. I'm a little indifferent because one hour doesn't really mean much to my circadian rhythm. I got to party one hour extra last night which was pretty fun.

I learned from church that sometimes jerks are in opposition with you. Actually, that's sort of a no-brainier in life. Being persecuted for what you believe in is pretty nasty business that the enemy wants to do to you to try to tear you apart. Matthew 5:10 says Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. I wish the Bible sometimes said that all Christians are cute to be around and a clear cut answer like this pretty woman wants to be your wife would be a little more evident. There must be a reason why we don't know everything; it's probably because the Lord wants us to take action. Acts 1:7 says "The Father sets those dates," he replied, "and they are not for you to know."  

Getting To Expert Status

I guess when you put some time into it then you can become really good at it, as long as you can create an edge with whatever you are doing. In other words, it requires skill to a certain degree. I feel really confident now with trading in the Forex market, and I may be seeing profits that could earn me a living soon. It's difficult to master because it takes the disciple of timeliness and getting over the fear of losing money, just like almost running any other business.

Skill wise, it just takes giving it all you got and doing this on a daily basis. I remember feeling like I had a learning disorder ha ha one time. The one thing I regret is taking some time off and doing something else that was time consuming, playing video games on my computer. I remember when I admitted to procrastinating while playing video games and feeling sort of bad about it, Betty laughed. I remember she also laughed when I mentioned that the Clippers winning a game is like a miracle to a fan, Jared. These are pretty okay jokes, I guess in general to laugh about so nothing wrong in it. The reason why I bring this up is because Betty can be pretty attentive and want to share a sense a humor with you, which is a pretty attractive quality for being a friend. When she vented with me, I really couldn't be any more supportive at the time because I was still weighing out her periods of being out of character with me. I'm really not intimidated with Betty and can actually see her smiling if I were to be around her more often in the future; it looks like it might be a sign of regret or anguish but overall, she'll actually be humbled in the process of becoming a more mature lady.

I was going back and forth with my feelings about Betty, so it was inconsistent but now I realize that even though we aren't really made to be husband and wife ha ha, she is hot. I sort of lied back then when I wrote about Betty being attractive; I didn't know her too well. I wrote a poem that stated she wasn't attractive. Betty admitted to me about not feeling attractive. Now, with me going back to realizing she's hot and that we're not meant to be in an intimate relationship, this makes things interesting in how we see each other as friends now. The speculation from a dude who claims to have right predictions which was annoying for a time said that Betty doesn't have a grudge against me. I can't go any more intimate in detail about her because I think it's inappropriate to share and probably better to keep it inward.

Know How To Deal With Strange Restraining Orders

I have two restraining orders intact that are about to be gone officially soon. The joke or ridicule is actually on them because I didn't do anything to them and don't even need to go after them before it's over. Now that I think of it, if I really wanted to I could have actually prevented it from ever getting initialized by speaking to the judge about it. I just stayed quiet because I was really nervous about Darunee Lee and Washington acting pretty strange with me. This issue was pretty much hitting upon the weakest area in my life, and I still got through it without needing to put any money into it for professional advice. Ha ha. 

Now I really don't need to be weird to get what I want, which is actually nice for a change. I can actually become a pretty nice dependable friend now to the people who have accepted me into their lives. I figure that I never really deserve any restraining order from anybody, no matter what I say to them because I'm being honest and not threatening them or yapping away with nasty insults at them. I figure if I was being unclear at the worst while being mad at them, then I was perfectly fine and actually being great about the situation.

Overall, I'm ready to handle more future weirdness that comes from people who want to file restraining orders on me. They are pretty much setting themselves up to go to ruin, and their gossip is no longer going to give them any confidence because it's going to sap the more worse the act around others because I'll be there trying to hypnotize them to feel guilty about being sinful; just joking, hopefully it's natural for them to feel guilty or else they are going to be a big problem for some cops. I'm a problem to immature cops and people going through an early midlife crisis like at around 35 and smoke a pack of cigarettes everyday. I'm a problem to people with problems in general, so that's a sign for me to figure when some more additional people remove me from their Facebook list and still have an account on there! With people who have problems, I can actually have fun with them and be very persistent to the nth degree and will be doing those things, so they better choose a good and moral lifestyle where they become happier with me around.   

Trying To Find Rhythm

Right now, it's sort of a struggle because I'm trying to get into the right mindset. I pretty much need to give more effort today to finish out the week strongly. After today, I'm pretty much going to have some free hours away from doing work. It's pretty nice to not have to work on Friday to the end of the week but it means having to be diligent in the other four days I work. It's been my first week, and so far I'm capable of handling the hours and getting pretty excited over conducting business, so it's something that I really want to stick to.

I know that most people work about forty or plus hours and that's not crazy to them. I'm sort of distributing forty productive hours through those four days, so it leaves me pretty satisfied because I think most people don't really schedule something often during the week because of work anyway. I might now be able to do some more pet projects for making money or just having fun once I get this business going in rhythm and style.

Wasting A Post With Stupid Image

This is for all you vexing people who thought trying to help me included yelling at me and acting all mad without being able to explain anything to me like a lunatic.  In reality, I do not really care anymore and know how to have fun with these people who just didn't know how to conduct themselves with me now. I understand their dispositions whether I thought it was dumb or not and can actually joke about it cleanly with them. Just that, the others who weren't involved with them may have a lot of fun hearing me out and that the ones who acted cruel and weird with me may get mad because they don't want to remember how bad they were. These people include Chris Kuch, Jar(r)ed Daniel Taing, Annie Tran, Betty Lam (I'm so sad), the pastor Chai (unbelievable), Golf (naughty naughty), Bae (buh bah sheep), and the unmentionable, untouchable, invisible Lee. They are all from the struggling church called Hope of God Church- they are pretty small in number, and I think I heard from a confidential source that the pastor needed to pay off some loan to buy the property still. I also wonder if Carlos Julio wants to get involved too with them still; maybe, when he finds out he'll definitely want to part ways with them because it's probably going to turn out to be the selfish way to go. This isn't really the case for everyone; it's just the way I'm wording it.

Business Hours

Since I have started a new company, it is relatively a new business and I would need an office sooner or later. It's also a business that mainly requires a fast internet connection, so I get to work while being home. It gives me more time to put more useful hours instead of having to worry about the killer drive going to work and coming back home.  A typical work day including the drive and lunch could easily amount to about 11 hours of work for a typical 8-5 job.

Well with the profits adding up, it's going to need a few more months to figure out if I'm going to have enough my first year to get an office set up. I would like an office just for the sake of having some space from home and to also give my programming buddies a chance to get together and work on a game. I might also hire a small staff initially for some office routines; we'll see about that.

For the time being this is my goal of the time I'm going to put in:

Activity	hours	days
training video (Fri to Th)	2.5	M-F
Trading	5.5	M-Th
Stretching / exercising	1.5	daily
additional trading / research	2.0	M-Th

Typical Routine

Mark 14:51-52 says "There was a young man following along behind, clothed only in a linen nightshirt. When the mob tried to grab him, they tore off his clothes, but he escaped and ran away naked."

That verse describes a pretty funny predicament. I notice that this one guy whose an idiot tries to make himself appear all great in private but when it comes to the real thing, he usually backs out or runs away from conflict. I think some people don't really know how to deal with fear of conflict and yet, try to give advice that they alone can't even handle. I realize this as being true to me, and it sort of angers me to be honest. Yet, I don't wish to be shaken up when it happens to me anymore. I believe I could go all day now and have some fun with those people who think they know better than me when I know that they already reminded me that they are weak in that area.

John 18:8-9 says "I told you that I am he," Jesus said. "And since I am the one you want, let these others go." He did this to fulfill his own statement: "I have not lost a single one of those you gave me."

This was a moment where the disciples of Jesus exhibited real fear and discomfort in a situation where they were faced with being put to death. Initially, the disciples did not fully understand God's plan. As we hear in history later, many Christians were put to death and some gave themselves over to be martyrs for Christ up to this day and age- including the Christian folklore that states Jesus' number one disciple, Simon Peter died on the cross upside down. The Bible states that the believers became equipped with this faith (peace and joy found outside the desires of the world) through the Holy Spirit. It also looks like Jesus justified human rights- John 18:23 says Jesus replied, "If I said anything wrong, you must give evidence for it. Should you hit a man for telling the truth?" This verse really helps me out in encouraging me to continue living out my life and the detail I cover with this blog in all honesty.  

Halloween

Today is a day where some people will go partying whereas some kids will go trick-or-treating. Because it's a Sunday, I think the partying won't be so crazy like it would on a Friday night. Since I'm at a new neighborhood for the first time, I'm not sure what my neighbors will be doing. It's pretty upscale here and seems like a conservative residency so maybe I won't see too many spooky costumes around here today.

I remember at my old town where I heard a story that some pesky residents from out of town would drive their kids to a rich neighborhood around where I lived and drop them off to go trick-or-treating. I remember when I went trick-or-treating then after awhile, my mom became bored of babysitting me to go trick-or-treating and said I was too old by the time I was in the 6th grade. Well, I don't really celebrate Halloween these days and the only time I would act like it is if I wanted to mock the holiday and scare some people intentionally. I would create a haunted shack and try to scare the living daylights out of some nasty adults- this is only if I happen to be pretty mad at the neighbors and I can't move out of there.

That was pretty funny to mention, I know and so I should keep this whole being honest-for-fun act going. I wonder whose going to be at the park today during this fine afternoon. A church is conducting a Scare Festival today which might be fun to check out later. I might go see what it's all about. I remember being there one year and being a volunteer; at the end of the night, I dumped all this candy into the kids' bag which was so fun to do. I wasn't that interested in munching on candy but nonetheless, I felt different from those greedy businesses who charge you to get some candy when you enter the door; they might still charge you for extra candy bars if you really want it! 

Confident From Seeing Good Results

I'm noticing that I'm starting to carry out the tasks that I'm writing about because I'm being really honest about what my goals are. I remember making bluffs about doing something not so serious on this blog which bugged Darunee Lee pretty badly. She brought it up in court when she was filing to put a restraining order on me. Again, I think Darunee was being crazy and I was never really into her so she just got herself into some mess she didn't know how to solve. Trusting someone who claims to know more than you and can't explain it clearly to you the first time is probably not the best idea. I was somewhere along those lines all along, so I did what was right which was coming out of my shell and just being plain honest.

This blog is totally now something that really helps complement my personal lifestyle. Regardless of whether people look it up to find my next move or not, I don't really care. I realize the world somehow has the internet to use to connect with people and lose him or herself for momentarily before going back into the real world. I remember reading some funny messages from a stranger on a chat room which started to bug this other lady.

Overall, this blog is also helping me out with my own Goal Setting 101. I'm really confident about setting my mind to some things now and working really hard for it now. My feelings may feel a little battered or cause me to worry sometimes but overall, I like this effort that I'm putting into it now.

Having Fun Working

Today is a Friday, I'm so pumped up about today. I really like Friday's, so with me ruining some people's day over not having really done anything was sort of funny to remember. They were in some state that caused them to make-believe about how a certain drama was occurring and it caused a domino effect. If the worst came from some ladies who were supposedly trying to stand by them weakly and show support with just removing me from their Facebook list, then that means nothing absolutely to me.

Overall, I wasn't affected by this but for them, it could be really bad in a make or break situation right now. So far, it's pretty much over now because they just sunk low so oh well, I didn't do anything to them so I guess I'm fine and don't have to feel any guilty ties with them or anything.

I'm pretty much going to try to continue my spiritual growth in the wisdom of the Lord through the pages of the Bible. I'm also enjoying my work, and I see that I'm going to be leading a pretty profitable career which is important in the business I'm getting myself into.

Honest Thoughts About Some Real Women

This post is meant to be a fun one for myself- after thinking about why I didn't rough house with my little sister who just went bananas over not being able to explain anything good with me, especially with the incident where she blocked me on Facebook. She did end up deleting her whole facebook account, and now I think she's an oddball for doing that and if she's lying, she's an even more bigger odd ball to me so I think you get the picture where I get even more frustrated and will act upon it with my feelings the more worse she gets with me, so I win because I'm bigger than her and a little more mature consistently. She's sort of a blockhead sometimes, but she wants to work hard for something which is what I need to give credit for her.

Since I'm in the mood for being factual and feel actually good about it, I think I'm safe in legal terms because I actually did conduct relations with these women for a certain period. Even if it makes me look bad, there's something for me to learn but I don't think there's really that much for me to be seen as having done a bad thing to them. 

I've pictured myself being the husband of Betty, Annie Tran, or Darunee Lee (Hope of God Church L.A.) and have to say that it leaves me laughing about it, meaning that I really can't imagine trying to going out with them and dating them. Honestly, the best of the trio is going to have to be Betty who I actually "chose" to be the one on this blog which turns out I was just messing around with my own feelings. I can't see myself really being that active with them, if I were to settle down and feel that it would be a direction where I would have to force myself to ensure a better life for the both of us.

I've heard from a friend that Annie T. is marrying an Australian dude- right on mate, going down under. It's interesting that someone actually wanted to pursue Annie. I wrote an e-mail to her stating that she should get married because I would never chase after her. Sort of wrote it with an impression that I was being forceful upon her. I don't know if she got my point, but probably didn't. Basically, I was pretty mad and letting go of the frustration by being straight up with her in the e-mail. It left me feeling satisfied and that one time e-mail was enough for me to never really mind Annie again. The reason why I felt angry with Annie was because she didn't know that she was under the hot seat, as being a go-to type person and not appearing active when I was really considering doing something special with her. My feelings for Annie is probably going to be the last of my childish thoughts with women. Annie did act very cat-like- so girls getting into cat fights, you see what I mean- well, she was feeling angry about me holding back something that she would never be able to know because of my relatively smart strategies where I can hide details. This feeling is really similar with how Betty felt about me.

Betty tried to be upfront with me and direct, but she showed some signs of weakness and couldn't handle it. She did the next best thing which was looking out for her own interests. Betty is naturally an easy person to get to know and someone who isn't that difficult to manage if you communicate directly with her. She probably wouldn't want you to be scared to open up to her and let it out, even if it's going to make her laugh or gossip about it with other people. For a time being, I was feeling against Betty because she acted out of character by making me feel like I was dissed. It's the past and people are going to deal with emotions and so likewise, I was just mainly working on settling some of my nervous issues, I know that I was pretty good all around even while being anxious because I gave it the best I could in these areas. I've seen so much improvement that it's easy for me to lay off or settle down now, which I was most afraid of doing.

About Darunee Lee Wongstapadat (long legal name- LOL), don't get me going there. I'm not really going to dedicate much about her. I don't really like her actually in the case of relationships because she has a tendency to be too dogmatic. Another female friend noted jokingly with me that she would set me up with a bossy girl. Sometimes, what you don't like in the opposite gender is visibly seen to them and they do that to you thinking that's what you really want. Even though Darunee showed signs of liking me which I assume to be real, I couldn't reciprocate any intimate feelings back to her in my volatile moment of trying to find someone. On this paragraph about Darunee, I'm admitting that I liked someone else which turns out to be more about respect and understanding she is my type. This woman is married to Christopher Kuch (Hope of God L.A.)- the man who sided with the crazy side of Darunee Lee and couldn't explain to me what was driving him insane about me. At least I know what his problem was with me, just that he doesn't know. Kuch's wife is like a close sister to me and it means family, so I'm getting warmer in finding who the right one for me is. So in me chasing after Darunee, it's pretty much going to happen in nobody's dreams- a figure of speech that states my strong position so her trying to slap me isn't going anywhere in the future. I seriously hope I'm not wrong about this and will pray for that to happen. Just the practical imagination should be enough that I wouldn't be okay with her.

Overall, it's like my charitable duty to just be a male friend to most women. It's going to take so much work just that they don't end up being my wife which sort of sucks. I'll have to settle down with another girl while I make myself establish a friend zone with them. The biggest reluctance is obviously Darunee, so I'm not sure about even talking to her.     

 

Things Running Smoothly

I guess there's this joy that comes with doing something that you love daily, especially if it's a job because it helps give you this inner peace and a state of mind that finds purpose in living daily. I've been doing quite a lot of stuff on the computer relating to my new company that I found and think that it's a great match for me. I'm really liking the thrill of running a business and getting lots of satisfaction in researching and finding ways to improve myself to make business run more profitably. It's great to have some wonderful systems in place and to develop or increase something to make it work for you.

Besides just doing the research, it's a matter of also taking action which is probably the most scariest part for some people who want to conduct business on your own. By not doing anything, nothing can really be accomplished so getting right into the heart of making money, it requires having a strong amount of desire to do it and being smart about your investments. Sometimes, things are too good to be true which is almost a lot of cases that is generated. I believe that it's important to work with money that you can afford to lose in a business or otherwise, just wait to get that money. If you don't have a job, then you have to make a compromise in finding job security which really sucks but then again, if it's helping you achieve good things like supporting your family then maybe it's worth taking the opportunity. If it's something that you can't handle, then get ready to ride that wave of self-doubt and hopefully you'll find something to get out of it. I'm pretty much my own person, so what I did is comparatively different from others. Yet, I've been finding my happy ground with running my own business so far which is doing great!

Company Expectations

I started a new business and am feeling pretty good about the profit that I'm currently making. I'm seriously doing really well so far and plan on keeping a cool and humble mindset to keep it going. Right now, it's just dealing with the Foreign Exchange Market. Some friends have asked me what that's all about- it's pretty much dealing with trading stocks but just deals with foreign money. You make money by entering trends and can profit when an economy is slowing down or doing better; basically you are investing in a richer country. It's a pretty challenging field because at least 95% of new traders end up losing their whole account! I'm sort of on the lucky 5% right now and have been doing this for about four months now. 

What I plan to do if my account gets really huge for me from making a killing is to diversify in other stock areas, probably just dealing with trading options. I will also place some earnings in a bank and get some residual earnings through compounded interest.  I plan on also investing in making money through trying search engine optimization (SEO) marketing and having an ebay store. Overall doing those things for making a living would be a lot of fun for me. I pretty much want to open up an office so I could have some space to work and invite some friends over to work on programming and testing computer games. It could be fun throwing a lot of parties at the office and sponsoring just a tad with popular events to promote some cool games or software we come up with. When I open up the office, the business that I want to conduct is mainly giving to charity. I have a friend already who wants to be my CEO in the office. We'll see about that.

Becoming Very Stabilized

It takes quite a bit of thinking and reasonable feelings to have faith in something, wouldn't you say? I feel like I'm one of those people who like to feel happy about doing small things that are charitable- in fact they're like so many of them that I don't even realize I did them and then later throughout random days I recall it and feel good for having done them. Having faith in being generous is pretty nice, wouldn't you say? I also believe that God really created us for a purpose and that Jesus really wishes everybody to not condemn themselves over any act that they feel is unpardonable. An important role that Jesus plays is that he demonstrated the power of love by showing kindness to suspicious people he knew were about to betray him to jealous enemies. Pride really seems to get in the way to making a commitment to know Jesus and yes, occasionally people who act pretty dumb and associate with things out of character.

For some reason, how I get to prideful people is ask them if they think they're perfect and most often than not, that question seems to get them to stumble because it did to me and lots of other people who don't even think like they are all that. The loneliness factor of people shunning you for being so stuck up also gets to some people. For the most part, it seems to be sort of lying to yourself if you think you're a hot shot because there are others who you may want to prevent from knowing more than you because you want to like hold your position over them as long as you could be satisfied. So to answer the questions that originates from the title of this post, take the time to be blunt about yourself or in other words, straight-forward and see where that leads you. If you want to become evil, then shame on you and hopefully you won't bomb a building of Oklahoma City. I think people who are bent on doing evil stuff are pretty much idiots even if they get around to hurting other people because if you take away all the fear, then it's really messy with millions of good people still being happy elsewhere.

Finding Comfortable Thoughts

I think we're living in an informational-driven society and under experienced results as a backbone these days. There's something about big men that look so intimidating and tough sometimes, and if you have them come around as a cop then obviously criminals are going to respect them in the most cases. I remember reading a story about a short man whose around my height being a cop and trying to use trickery to get criminals to listen to him. It's really quite fascinating because I think that criminals wouldn't listen to you anyway if they could get away with you and some criminals are also pretty scary looking too- just in time for Halloween eh? I wonder if someone would dress as a scary gangster for Halloween and walk around and then tell cops it's just a costume; that would be sort of stupid but just wondering about it for laughs.

I went to a very fun reunion this week for my high school, and no I'm not at the ten-year mark yet. It was fun to reacquaint with people who I remember from those years. I remember seeing some guys who had taller wives actually, and it seemed like people weren't making a big deal about it. The guys sort of look average or above average in height, so it doesn't seem to matter that their wives appeared a couple inches taller while wearing high heels. This gives me confidence in finding the right girl again, haha. Remember Barney and Betty from The Flinstones cartoons?  I tend to be attracted to a smaller bunch- yes, Asians even though I'm Asian and pretty short, it doesn't really get to me anymore in just making friends with anyone now. For the most part, smaller confident guys tend to smile a lot more when people bring up about how short they are. Short men also definitely belong to some hearts of women, so after all anything is possible even if the polled results state the majority of females preferring at least men of average stature. I think some Asian women might give smaller men the benefit of the doubt and see them a little more average to their tastes, so I think I'm fine in this whole being attracted to Asian girls thing. 

Balancing Fun And Work

Something that really gets to me a little is my spiritual life. I seem to think quite a bit about it because it's an important aspect to me. Praying to God has really helped me figure out my own identity, likes, and dislikes. The Bible has really brought me guidance when I was really missing it in my life. I remember some prayer requests that Annie Tran of Hope of God Church made. Well, the prayer requests don't really go around anymore. I remember submitting my own and then it became reworded and wasn't exactly word for word, which is sort of interesting. What sort of bothered me about Annie was that she requested being prayed for about finding guidance. I don't really think you really have to worry about that, when your being faithful to God. Oh well, she was a little misguided somewhere then. The church pastor over there, Chai, also claimed that Annie could do what prophets do; pretty interesting. Interesting how a church looks to so much about the Holy Spirit and make it about life repeating itself on some concepts, which gets sort of dry but people still give into it. More or less, that's just how some people were born and don't mind; now that I think about it.  

So me being sued for being honest by some weird church people? Nah, I don't see it happening now. Just sticking to honesty is pretty much all I really need to do now. Yeah, even if it hurts me more than them to pain myself in being truthful. If I can stay closely to being honest with myself, then maybe I can be decent at focusing too. I'm going to try to stick to having fun on the weekend and just go all out with work when I'm supposed to work. I need to be serious and want to be ahead of things in my new business that I created. Reading the Bible for me only takes at most 15 minutes a day and it would cover the whole Scriptures in one year, even though I don't catch every single verse and my mind still wonders off. Dedicating myself on Sundays to prayer and worship with God sounds great. Even doing it throughout the week feels great too. I think I'm going to be all about balancing spiritual things and work during the week and then just have a whole lot of fun during the weekend because that's when I really don't work that much. The nature of my business is off on Friday nights, all day Saturday, and to the evening on Sunday, so it gives me plenty of time to have fun while I count the profits and work hard for it during the week.

Free Computer Games

I have found that there are a lot of good computer games out there which are free to play. I just googled for free online games and then hit this website that pretty much reviews every free game that has hit the market. Most of these games require some fee to play extra but you still get to explore a computer game and have fun interacting with other players while it lasts. Some of these are indefinitely free to play meaning that there are no restrictions to play the whole game. I played this one game all night called Ace Online, which is a jet fighter science fiction game and pretty addicting. It's free to play indefinitely and the graphics are pretty awesome for something that's free and the missions are endless because you practically get one per level. The monsters also give you a sufficient amount of experience, along with the missions you complete so it's not uncommon to find people who get to like level 90. 

This goes to my theory that anything is possible with making money and that you should do it while enjoying it. It's even possible to make money while playing games against other people online, and this does not have to do with online casino games. I believe that some old folks are really quite successful at making a living with playing online games and that they are really unique in that their minds must be still staying sharp playing against other young gamers. Best of all, making money while playing games require no start-up fee and is free!

Started Legitimate Company

I guess some friends may start asking me if they can work for me sooner or later. I'm in the trading business right now, and I've made some money - pretty good money for starting up so far. It's great to have a business because the taxes you pay are actually less than what you would typically owe as an employee. I'm also registered with the I.R.S. right now and have already made some profit, and it's great that a lot of things can be looked upon as a business deduction. Anyway, putting along aside all this projected success from doing willing and passionate hard work, it seems to fit my personality all around. I'm actually a guy for some reason who likes to give money and don't know why; maybe it's just a natural calling for me because it feels great to donate some money to a non-profit charity with a beautiful cause.

I'm planning on using all this free time to try out some exhilarating and expensive sports like sky diving; I'm trying to drag along my family to go with me but they are pretty scared already. I do have a friend who normally chickens out on roller coaster rides willing to do parachuting with me and free falling down the earth's atmosphere. It's such a contradiction to feel uncomfortable with rides and then picture yourself jumping outside an airplane. I also hope that I can be in charge of that money and give the money away to good charities so I hope to still be alive when I'm old because I won't do those dangerous sports anymore by then and just work on having good physical fitness and perhaps, run a marathon. I hope God heard my prayers, LOL. I also want to become a doctor by the time I'm an old man and having finances to cover the school cost would be great and so stress-free where I could just work on becoming a family doctor and volunteer at parts where they need good doctors. So after all, this whole feeling of ditching women who could be a potential wife with me at this bad church (Hope of God Church, L.A.) because of their bad and funny actions (Betty, Annie, and Darunee Lee) and looking out for another girl to marry somewhere else doesn't seem like a bad exchange for me. Hey readers, let's avoid rock-bottom and go for 5-star pro! 

Rainy Days

It's been pretty nice to have some rain fall; honestly, I sort of like the slightly cold weather right now because it feels like I could cool off more easily while working out. I know that possibly some grumpy old men would want to mumble about horrible weather that ruined their fishing trip, but not me I suppose because I'm still young and willing to run through a rain forest like a wildebeest. I've also been part of weather where the rain is actually warm, and it sticks to your skin- the environment felt really weird when I experienced it for the first time.

For the most part, I like not having to put on the heater or the air conditioner at my house and just enjoying the natural cool breeze which flows through my room. I actually like generating business with my computer right now. Making money is actually easy that even an idiot could do it- I'm not kidding because I have reiterated a few times already that I know somebody who was born to be an idiot. I guess the dictionary has usage for some words like blockhead, dummy, numb skull, and etc. which are synonyms to poke fun at some, not very bright people. Maybe there's a saying that idiots are almost always funny. I think smarter people can be a whole heck of a lot funnier and more appropriate at the same time.

I need to go outside and get some fresh air right now with the cold weather that I'm enjoying. I've actually set myself on a path that's making money this time while doing something I like and having my own business to show for it. Common sense would ask you why would people share knowledge that makes them money when they figure it out and then why would you waste your money on them? It's a good question to think about when considering some profit systems that are out there. The main reasons I've come across are: passionate teachers, a business of helping people, trustworthy sources, good reputation, and the product just works after testing it with a 30-day guarantee. To be on the safe side, it's really wise to be active in trying out the product and if expectations are not met then to return it. It's also important to make sure you know what you want when you're getting into a fast-track or mentoring program that really has no money back guarantee and to really ask questions; if you don't get satisfied or still suspicious about it then don't give in and hang up on the telemarketer. LOL

Revealing Myself

I recall hearing some stories or watching television shows where someone's secret diary became somehow published and then some friends felt really mocked and became bitter about hearing bad things about themselves. One of my favorite incidents with this story is actually a baseball player who was a pitcher and responsible for losing the last World Series game. The young short stop was enraged with how the pitcher didn't seem to show enough emotion to influence the last out of the game. The pitcher became really angry about it and then promised the public that he would bean the short stop and surly enough he did when they faced each other several times. It's quite an unfortunate vendetta they had with one another.

By me stating that I won't really talk about others on this blog, I don't think I'm truly being that honest then. I know I can hold back as long as I want to in putting down details. I must as well just be myself and let it rip because I'm just trying to be honest about situations, and it's been giving me a lot of comfortable closure no matter how stupid others were being to coming close to driving me crazy. In a way, this blog has brought me some interesting moments that I won't ever forget. It reveals to me that the human brain and heart struggles sometimes with immature issues and that it needs to be revealed to help the one individual whose being bad with you come to terms with him or herself. Am I sometimes being bad with myself? I guess so I write about myself objectively and the morality that's associated with it is pretty much personal. Through writing, I'm able to see myself a little better so when it comes to writing about others; well, I'm again just worrying the most about being truthful and blunt. This seems to be the best ideology that works the best for myself. The benefits that I'm getting from writing bluntly is that I'm capable of reading at a better rate with better understanding because things feel like they are flowing much better from me. Maybe, I'm a natural leader; not sure just going to have refine myself to find out.

Doing Better I Suppose

Life is good, and it takes quite a bit of trial and error sometimes. I guess I'm sometimes missing out on what I'm supposed to be doing and that I need to get back in line again to make sure that I'm going somewhere in life. Writing is actually making me feel really good and helping me see a lot more things more clearly, so in a way it's really helpful.

I've been trying Rogaine for my slight hair loss and don't really know if it works or not but anyway I keep using it and I will see where that takes me. I just need to stop getting lazy over these small things and keep at it because I know it's going to increase in measure on the long run, so it's important for me to keep on exercising and having a proper diet to maintain my weight a little. I would seriously like to make myself become the right size again. Almost anything is possible and making a little piece of money is easy enough that even an idiot could do it, like this one guy I know. He even doesn't really care if you call him an idiot because he just tries to fire back, so yeah, he has a pretty sorry life in my opinion that he seems to ignore and try to not let get to him. It sometimes gets the best of him and then he just goes all out in trying to point out how others around him are doing more worse than him and then finds excuses to avoid them if he can't find anything out about them.

Things Worth Living For

I guess some people don't know how to blow their nose properly so blood would come out of it, so thinking in that sense some people just like to over do some things and then act all weird about it. I'm not going to really go into that much with the people who did that to me anymore. At least, I know I have a life now and that it's good to be able to share the Word of God around when the opportunity rises with good friends who don't really know Jesus yet. It's probably going to be a little harder witnessing to closer friends because of the space they already feel comfortable acknowledging with you. Maybe that's why some churches that rely on building friendships may be having a little hard time in growing. So maybe really praying and doing everything the Bible tells you to do even if it means doing something that's hard to get rid of, like stop being a bad boy or super bad-crazy girl ( LOL ) would be a good start.

An Extra Post For The Holidays

Well, I'm just going to take a few more minutes to write whatever the heck I feel like just that I'm going to be super honest that it may break down some people who are try to find the negatives of this blog. What I'm doing sounds really nice, right? I'm turning people who want to mock this website into people who are forced to not care and go bother somebody else about their personal problems. So I can't force people to stay off my property, this website is like my lawn so people are coming on here to read what I have to put.

I'm just kidding about that, it's cool so share the wealth of knowledge that you have with the world. Let me know that I'm really sinking down faster than a Star Wars ship with Jedi knights on it going light speed to come to the rescue and then have the star Jedi chop off Bubba Fett's head off or something like that; I forgot who was the clone? I'm debating whether it's good or not to look that up really fast. I gotta focus on something else right now, so sayonara; hastala vista Arnie!

Stepping It Up

Okay, I am not sure what I'm writing down right now. Not really, I'm pretty aware of what I'm writing. Okay, the sun don't shine every day and the moon is always there when it's day time. Okay, I don't know how tell a good joke sometimes. All right then, things are sounding a little awkward right now. Ha ha. I'm not so sure but I'm really confident so I'm willing to become sure from being confident with something so that means I'll be self-adjusting myself when the situation calls for it.

I'm going on vacation so I have to pretty much leave an extra post so that when I do get back, I won't be behind. I guess that's not that bad, going on vacation for one day every week. Especially on a Friday night and then coming back Sunday afternoon. It seems pretty refreshing to take those short vacations to go somewhere pretty often. It's better than imagining a dumb video game in your head everyday. It's better to explore the horizons and get some fresh air.

Realizing Mistakes

I'm pretty much making this a pretty generalized post of what I noticed with the choices I made that got me pretty much feeling a little down. I know everybody is different, and I even remember hearing some people talk about living life with no regrets which is cool I suppose. In a nutshell, it's been all about being able to handle awkward situations for myself. Whether it came down to taking piano lessons to get better or sweating like crazy with working out or spending a ton of hours to perfect a skill with some lame video game, it was all about handling awkward situations and being able to contain composure without giving up. What I really like about it is that it took developing some light or dark humor to keep things going. The thing I hated the most about awkward situations is that it made me feel uncomfortable. Now, I understand a lot more about myself and where my choices should have really reflected. If I'm angry, then I'm angry and if I'm sad, then I'm sad and so on. I realize that I'm going to deal with anything awkward in my life and take it like a man and if it takes me to a bottomless pit, I'm going to still try to claw myself out and make provisions for myself as best as possible.

It's not difficult for me to get along with people at all, if I just become straight out honest with them and that's what I should do now even if I'm afraid some details are a little to T.M.I. I'm only guessing about this part, but the people who dismiss me on their Facebook page must be like aware of my attractive qualities that come out from adversity and must want to prolong it with a mean decision of letting me go. I guess that's the way to look at it and quiet their hearts around me. In a way, I'm still cool to them just that they've revealed to me where they were being weird and funny, so in a way crazy bad people. They're going to probably look for some other excuse to temporarily offset their difficult moments because they just want to have a selfish moment about something. Supposedly, it will shock them from trying to run my life if they want to do something terrifying to my liberty like those dumb church people who acted like brats did to me. I pretty much have some reasons that I posted previously just that I'm spending another majority of the time making fun of them and suddenly, I'm just willing to laugh about it and let it go now. I think that's probably the best thing for me; it's to just let it go and watch them try to claw themselves out of a jam in a joking manner because the church is not so great and struggling as usual.

Thinking Happy Thoughts

I believe that having a full life is based on living out your full desires. It is really quite interesting or maybe not, when a person goes through some financial difficulties and has a way of letting it be known to others he or she communicates with. Sometimes it takes a willing mind to seek out the expertise of others and that you also have to put in a lot of time with something to in order to ensure that things go well financially and that the business ends up flourishing.

For myself, I've noticed that I was not quite feeling it with some jobs that I did because they felt so boring and empty at times. I guess I was looking for some excitement in my work and something that had plenty of leverage. I believe that my preferences really fits a trader's lifestyle, and I think I chose a really good market to master because I really like sitting at my computer and closely monitoring my trades. It's pretty awesome because you just hunt for nice offerings and then go in to get some green to help your account grow. I'm now really growing in a lot of confidence and enjoying this freedom that comes with the idea of having financial independence. It's like becoming a leader of my own choices and believing that they will help me out in becoming successful and a happy guy. I don't even have to be a cutthroat business-man to get rich; I could just do my own thing by researching and putting the money in all the right spots and then watch the profit grow. 

Living the Dream Life With Diligence

I pretty much need to stop some bad behaviors right now that I don't want to really even share with myself. I believe all that it really means is that I'm supposed to wait on finding a girlfriend or getting married and that those feelings were really hard to notice for myself. I am really going to stop playing poker for tons of cash because it's not going to be really that profitable as I would like it to, when you get money then it's great but what about the others who struggle when things aren't going so straight; it's true that poker professionals specialize by researching and writing books and always trying to up their game but it sometimes comes down to just pure dumb coincidence which is horrible to a businessman. I've found that I've been looking to be an investor from playing poker and now that I've found what I've been looking for in these hard, economic times I believe that financial gain is going to be very possible for me now.

So thinking about all my life being about studying hard and being the best person you can be at everything has brought me quite a long ways in my journey. I want to give it my best all the time and not be some couch potato who lays on his bed when he gets home and watches boring T.V. because I just can't imagine having a loser mentality like that anymore. I have a lot of motivation and drive and proven experience to go where I want to be financially now and so this business opportunity for myself that I've created is the best I've dreamed up in a long while. I'm ready to be a natural and honest person with whatever I do and no matter how crazy people become with me, I will strive to finish everything I want to accomplish by keeping on with running the race just as Paul the Apostle described in his epistles.

New Post at 01 Hundred

Okay, man I need to stop stressing it so much about this thought of getting married now. So I really wouldn't mind I guess now because supposedly parents get together before they raise a family together right? So I'm not fully focused and seem to be very horrible with some things. It really doesn't matter now that I think of it. I just have to be myself; yeah, I would love to be myself and mainly, I think the most important part is to just be honest about yourself. Man, this blog is getting really lame to write about anything. I think I'm really in the mood when I have a thought that lingers in my head for a long time over complicated matters, like people who treat you personally bad in person. Those people are crazy and complicated sometimes, and it's hard to figure out what their motives were so I wrote about them and finally get it. I guess that's what the purpose of this blog can be, while trying to make it fun for myself and letting myself write a bunch of cheesy posts.

I don't really think this blog is really that important, but I do make some strong points about whatever I need to say. Oh well, I'm going to need to just get my things in order now and be more on top of things. It's never really that easy unless you know what you're doing, but it's going to come through time I suppose. I'm just rambling on about different stuff with this relatively new and recharged perspective. I'm actually enjoying myself a little more better and just trying to be honest in the living that I'm making. Oh well, I'm going to pretty much stop some activities that I've been doing since I was a kid because those acts make me feel stupid now.

Being Sardonic For Laughs

Okay, I'm just writing about something random today because this is what I'm doing and I'm just trying to be consistent with myself. I guess writing about goals is a really powerful of expressing yourself to the world, and if it's really positive then things might happen your way with good causes. I tend to think a lot about optimism and then when I'm pessimistic, I could think about taking advantage of others. Oh well, pessimism is a type of weakness where I want to go out and take advantage of those bad people who talk bad about others. I'm just weird like that sometimes, maybe because I sound like an old guy while being a young person. Oh well, okay, I'm talking pretty much random and sort of sarcastic today.