Keeping Myself in Good Company

A lot of good things have been happening for me after making myself into a very confident person. I'm sticking to my moral principles at the same time while just doing things that interest me. It's been working out well for me. 

I think going to events found on Meetups have been really fun for me, along with meeting people who are friendly and open while being around people. I enjoy doing this and it's been fun to be around a few hot ladies as well. I'm assuming they are taken, until there's enough indication they aren't. Also, I can't really ask out about 99% of them right now because of my financial and living situation.

I really don't want to waste money by moving out to rent an expensive apartment. I would rather make a down payment for a nice home instead. Until the day this happens, I'm stuck with living with my parents. They are also against me marrying a girl outside our pure ethnicity. I'm under their roof even though I'm an adult and don't want to create a stressful situation for myself when it could be avoided. I also don't mind taking my time with becoming rich and then marry whoever I want after moving out. It just makes much more sense to do well while staying relaxed.

I'm very interested in owning a nice home and having enough money without depending on my parents which I still do by working at their business. This is why I'm branching off with investing in stocks and trading currencies. I also have a decent idea with being successful at it while resting easy at night. 

Just a Matter of Time

I see that it's just a matter of time before I start getting really active with that family making business in marriage, if you know what I mean. First off, there's really no ladies around my vicinity that conveniently matches the description my parents want me to be married off to. Also, I really don't want to go through some dating agency with my dad paying for it. I really don't like his plan and it wasn't a good sell so I turned him down. 

I also don't want to go to a boring church just because it has my ethnicity primarily attending it and try to date girls who have the same ethnicity.  

Actually, I think I'm doing just fine now because my confidence level is so high that it has actually increased my acumen as well. I think I was naturally a pretty smart individual to begin with and in an intuitive sense, so this confidence is only promoting what I was naturally supposed to be doing in the first place. It's such a great feeling! 

Seeing Things in Better Perspective

One of my good friends I haven't known that long and is a girl totally lost it with me the other day and couldn't drop something. It was pretty clear that she just couldn't get past whatever the issue was. Fortunately, my confidence has been soaring really high lately so I know I really didn't do anything wrong to her. I asked my mom if this is pretty normal for a woman to behave like this occasionally. The answer was no, my friend had something wrong going on with her. 

I believe my friend is crazy and relating it to how Crazy Lee behaved with me in the past along with her gang of misfits who went against me, they were all being crazy! Each and every one of them had anger issues over something that had nothing to deal with us personally and just couldn't get on the right track with me. It was really painful to me because I'm a relational person and did the best I could, but let's face it, I felt lazy about the whole ordeal and just ran my mouth off best as I could in the nicest way while trying to tear them apart with just text messages that I never wanted to say to them in person. They all got annoyed with me fast and ended up ignoring my messages. 

I ended up blocking the messages of a few people who had a hard time with me too just to feel like I had a leg up over them and even told them this. It was an interesting scenario, and I can easily unblock them and message them again for all I care. They have something that's really embarrassing for them because they didn't really handle it that well with me and want to avoid talking about it because they don't want it ruining their image. It's because I'm such a nice guy supposedly, so they want to be selfish about hiding it from others and say that it's all the past. 

I really think they could all benefit from seeing a therapist about it now. I just was confused for the most part from having my relational side get in the way emotionally. It was frustrating and made me mad to think about it in a daily fashion, but I have gained the self-confidence needed to brush it off without putting in much effort.  

Staying Consistent in a Smart Manner

It's nice to be able to review actions from the day before and then just think about what you wanted to get done and how that took place. There's pretty much some discipline that has to be formed to reach it consistently, and I guess it's still taking me a while to get there. 

For the most part, I'm doing a lot better at getting most of the things done on my daily checklist. I still like to divert my attention to something else that might be useless but entertaining.

Figuring things out and rolling along with some punches has been the name of the game. What I mean is that I can't be the best at everything, and it's been nice to read what others put online discreetly. I seem to have been gathering quite a small crowd with my written comments elsewhere online. 

For the most part, it's been fun to just intuitively come up with an answer on the fly while reading up on how other users answered regularly. I'm really just interested in answering questions that don't have a great answer yet and I haven't written already while being something I'm pretty experienced with already, so I like to try to fill that void and do this just for fun. 

Hanging in There With Confidence

I'm trying out something controversial with trying to make myself grow taller, so I don't even know if it's going to work or not but it seems interesting enough for me to try it out. It cost me a one time charge of only twenty dollars, and it requires me to relax about an hour a day. I'm playing some online Poker to go with it, and I'm finding how I'm not so worried about losing to other players because I'm so relaxed. Fortunately, I'm putting up to five dollars of my money at a time right now but I am still seeking to make some profit as a recreational player. 

I'm also demo trading cryptocurrency pairs and still live trading on the Forex market with the bare minimum just to gain enough experience with my style and become consistent at making a profit. It's getting there but does require some patience and still have a little guesswork to sort through. 

The next thing I'm interested in adding to my repertoire is working out.

Pursuing Things With Confidence, Positive Attitude, and Acceptance

It's finally dawned on me with this consistent good feeling underneath me. It's helping out with keeping me calm and happy inside. It's really wonderful to be alive and to keep on moving forward.

I think it's normal to be attracted to girls for dating purposes, but pursuing after them is another thing. It's probably better to just accept it with the possibility that any one of them could already be taken and just stay nice out of the goodness that's in your heart! 

I would really like to be a good representative for all the good guys out there, even if there aren't that many left. Also, I think this one blockhead I used to know called this other blockhead a good guy, but he's really a selfish pig so I think the first blockhead had a bad judge of character. 

Unfortunately, I just wasn't confident enough to deal with their misgivings and temper tantrums against me. They were really acting out like a bunch of narcissists and sort of convinced others I was some person that I never really turned out to be in the end. It turns out that I was just mad about their behavior with me, but not how they thought. I don't really care what their opinion is because I can decide for myself what's best in the end. I have enough self-control to not get too carried away and do stupid things that would have really dire consequences. I did take perfect risks though that I could have easily maneuvered if only I was prepared emotionally and mentally for anything that would take place. I failed while falling flat on my buttocks! 

The good thing about all of this is that I now have my confidence that I always needed, while feeling really good about myself most of the time. This makes it a lot easier to get them back on decent terms and even add insult to injury by trying to force them to add me as a Facebook friend! I really don't care if this is going to always end up making them mad or not, but I'm ready to recommend to them all that they all go see a therapist while talking to them in person! I plan to be straightforward and let them know how I feel without holding anything back with my usual manners that I personally enjoy always employing.

I just know that while I was mad and really venting via writing nice words to bully them around consistently with messages and not talking to them in person, they ended up blocking them. I still made them do a bigger reaction than I did to them at least. They were totally ineffective with setting out what they were trying to do to me. In the end, I'm just happy to know that they are just a bunch of regular imbeciles and will never be more successful than me!  

There was never going to be any amount of therapy that would make me satisfied while relating to that whole incident with a bunch of pseudo-narcissists so I rejected it. At least they turned out to be pretty dumb, but all I was missing was just confidence, which was the key ingredient I totally lacked in. It's really a blessing though that I found the right guy who did a powerful powerpoint presentation one day and then that just turned my world upside down for the better. I'm still a conservative believer of Christ based on the basics of the Bible and that's never going to change for me. I think that also has something to do with me staying uplifted in a consistent manner.  

Maintaining Confidence

I think the best part of the day really happens from just maintaining a positive mind and staying confident. It really does come down to stability with a good attitude to keep on striving for wonderful things. 

Honestly, I would like to become a millionaire with a six-pack and have started to experience some growth with my investments. I'm not going after risking it really big, neither am I thinking that I'm better than others. I really don't mind with taking awhile to get there and continuing to learn how to speculate and invest profitably in a consistent manner. 

I would like to get there a lot sooner though while also playing it safe off of my side job. The income I am currently making off my day job is enough to do a few fun activities and keep a little leftover for investing while maintaining a decent savings account. It's totally better than nothing. 

Obtaining happiness in my personal life is really dependent on reaching this goal of financial independence because without it, I can't see myself getting my own house and then dating a really nice lady. Well, I probably could if my parents were to introduce me to an interested girl they would like me to get to know, but there's really no one like that for me now.  

Making Myself Ready for Future Dates

Currently, the only girls I can probably date so easily would be the ones who are interested in me and have the same nationality. These girls are really hard to find to begin with because I'm not really anything that special. I seem like a nice guy, which is what my friend said about me while I used to be interested in her, and also short. 

The girls I'm interested in are not that much taller or shorter than me. We are almost level in height and maybe the majority of them are a little bit taller than me. Oh well, it sucks but they are still nice and I'm staying interested in them. I think I have a good time with cute girls who laugh when I bring up my height one time and seem down to earth. Okay, those are the perfect girls for me to hang with and enjoy their company.

The reason why I can't date so easily out of my race like my coworker I'm interested in is because one of my parents is a part owner of the company and so against it. I'm still living under my parent's roof, so I can't go off doing my own cool and Americanized thing until I've saved enough and moved out into a nice place of my own. I'm going to be near 40 in a few years and it sucks that I have to deal with this with my non-conforming parents. Once I'm successfully on my own, I don't really care what they think about me dating hot girls outside my race. 

I want to really work at this and get there soon as possible while doing something I enjoy. This is what I've found for myself and it's only just begun.

Thinking About Possible Relationships

From texting a friend who was potentially a girlfriend to me, I no longer feel the urgency to try to date her anymore. She's still fun to be around for hanging out and providing some company, since we're about the same age while she's pretty. It's just that she feels like quite a bit of a freak to me. I think I'm going to hold out with pursuing after her and just care about having fun in our budding relationship.

A few signs about my friend now makes me feel like it's going to be a deal breaker. I can't put it fully in words but it's just an overall impression about how I'm feeling with her. I'm now going to put my hopes on asking out a coworker. I'm seriously attracted to her and enjoy her personality. I'd like to get to know her more at least as a friend for possibly leading to marriage while being lovers. She might seriously be my type. 

Other than that, there's two other girls I have met and also interested in. I don't know their relationship status and can accept it if they are taken. The same goes with my coworker, since I'm not ready to ask her out yet and get an answer. With these three girls, I'm just not ready even though I know that I'm interested in trying to ask them out someday. There's also another girl who is getting out of a bad relationship, and I sense now that we could maintain great chemistry with each other. We are great friends and have already admitted mutually that we love each other in a respectable manner. 

Therefore, I have four girls I met and am personally interested in dating now after having had like six to count this year. I'm assuming that they are all taken or going to have an issue about dating me, so I don't see this at all as being negative but just waiting it out with some class.  

Keeping Up With Myself

I'm touching upon how my personal distractions right now are really about keeping myself entertained, while having some actual goals that I'm interested in doing. I'm putting some work into getting those things done whenever I can snap myself out of it. For the most part, it does feel relieving to cross off my daily To-Do list and has sort of become like a game for grown ups. 

I'm just going to have to continue trying to fulfill my daily To-Do lists, while snapping myself out of doing extraneous activities that are fun in the moment. I didn't grow up with a really good role figure from my dad who considers being a couch potato as a super fun hobby outside work. This sort of influences me in a bad way, but I'm figuring out that it's better to just be self-confident and stay focused while thinking positive. I'm still looking to have most of my dreams come true someday and now I'm confident about working at achieving them. 

Progressing Better

I'm starting to realize that a lot of my personal time is really spent over giving myself to entertaining distractions. It is a lot of fun to binge watch while streaming good episodes, but there's a limit to how much I want to give into it now. I don't really want that to be the focal point of my life at any given point. 

It's really going to be just a matter of time though, before I get rich enough to be able to move out on my own finally. I'm going to be really nearing my middle age sooner or later. I'm going to have to just keep on trying to minimize my distractions and working to get the hard part out of the way regularly for myself before giving myself over to some well-deserved fun and relaxation!  

What I Could Do Better

Last night, without really intending to discuss it, I really should have known better and I do want to keep these posts as clean as possible so it would be better to just keep it inside my head. 

Instead of going off to do my entertaining pursuits, I could really go after finishing off marking my To-Do lists. I seem to have no problem following them at work, but when I'm home, I totally shut down and lose sight of personal focus. I think the best way to go about this is to just keep on putting in the effort to remind myself and still take heart while I'm feeling a little worn down.

I think I can really reward myself later once I have my necessary tasks in order or maybe I might need to cut down on the excess that I don't find myself interested in. I'll just have to go after pushing aside the extra stuff that entertains me but may provide little value to my time and enjoy them at a later time. I do find myself to be a people person, so I do value others like my own future wife and kids more than just binge watching a cool series.  

Making More Sense

I finally feel like I have it figured out from maintaining a lot of self-confidence along with having a reasonable amount of patience. It was pretty difficult to get to this point, but I'm still glad that I dealt with those ups and downs to finally get to this point. Mainly, it is really hard to do but it all starts with your own attitude. 

Everybody is wired differently with what interests them and for me, I'm really into computing in general. I don't mind learning about anything dealing with computers even though I'll start off with being lazy about it! I also want things to happen as conveniently as possible while building off of personal experiences and even using my intuitiveness at the same time. I think this is why it was important for me to gain plenty of confidence with a positive mindset. 

I'm just not totally swayed anymore from feeling bad about something in the moment. This is why I think I can go for full glory as an investor and speculator of the currency markets while swing trading it! It's pretty enjoyable for me to take the risk while actively pursuing some profits. I might get myself into investing in real estate too, but for this one I'll just turn it over to a good management team for me and collect profit while paying their fees. As long as I don't really have to pay much out of pocket to keep them hired.  

Working a Routine

For the most part, I have made a To-Do list for each day excluding the weekend and probably will make one for them too because it's turning out to be effective. I'm using the list and crossing things out at work. It's probably when I'm home that my mind is really shutting down. Work can be pretty draining for the most part.

It can get totally nuts but that's why I'm glad to have found an investing style that caters to my preferred lifestyle. It's just going to take longer I suppose to get rich, but it will reach there eventually. I'm just going to have to work at getting around to doing everything on my To-Do list eventually. It's really just entertaining distractions that's keeping me too busy. 

Main Thing to Work On

The biggest thing I have going is pretty much falling asleep early, right after getting back home from work and eating dinner. I'm not absolutely fond of living with my parents when I would prefer to move out with a lot of money in my pocket. The way I'm trying to go about this is from investing in stocks and trading currency for money now. It's definitely a risk but so far, I'm doing good so I'm just going to have to keep on going at it. 

My third form of making money which is from doing Poker is just taking off too much time for me now. I think I'm already satisfied with the work I put in at my family company and the income I make. I don't really need to do any extra anymore, even though I could. I just think that it takes up too much time and I prefer to live a more balanced life like working out and cooking food for myself. 

Yesterday, my mind ended up slacking off from turning off my smart genes and I gave in a little to my lustful temptations. I don't believe in getting physically intimate before marriage because for me, the Bible says so and I don't really care what other reason is out there. It's just preposterous and the main thing to focus on would be fully loving your partner and not looking for anything smaller than that out of just wanting some pleasure. Once the marriage is set in place, it's time to make it a more fun deal instead of feeling like it's work sometimes. 

Picking Up an Investing Style

I'm starting to understand how I'm going to be investing my money for the long term. I believe that I'm part of a really good investing group and feel comfortable sticking with it, so that's how I will go about it. I want to really be a low maintenance type person, so I don't mind doing copy and paste while letting everything balance each other out. The only thing I'm going to be arbitrating is my allocation amount. 

Because I'm not starting out investing with like $100,000 which would be ideal for making a bunch of cool investments, I'm going to have to compact it down a bit to something more manageable and will work for me. It looks like it's really exciting to invest for my future and hopefully, I'll become a millionaire soon and not have to keep living under my parent's roof as a personal safety net.

They were sort of failures with raising me properly, since I grew up to be really sensitive so I don't always like their advice anymore. Yet, I told my mom honestly that if I end up making a lot of money then I'm going to marry whoever I fall in love with even if she's outside my ethnicity. They really don't have anyone they would like to introduce me to because I appear to be a loser, so maybe I should first move out while doing well for myself and then tell them that I'm interested in marrying whoever they would like to introduce me to so in the end, they can only be upset with themselves if I end up marrying someone they don't like! 

Staying Caught Up

I think the biggest distraction for me is spending my time watching things when I can find better things to do. To get over this ailment, I'm probably just going to have to run up my To-Do list and get used to crossing it off on my off-hours. It seems to be going really well for me at work for the most part. 

This is pretty much it for me. It really doesn't matter for me how things turn out with whatever I'm going after to seek. I will just continue to learn and improve myself as best I can. Playing online Poker does feel pretty stale to keep up pretty consistently now. I'm going to try to lay off as much as possible now. Maybe, when I'm waiting somewhere and going to be there for a while then I can do something like that.   

Working on Better Things

I pretty much have three main and unique To-Do lists now and they are just unbelievably simple to maintain! I'm using the G-mail suite of course and applying the To-Do list spreadsheet template. For the date column, I just number it based on my preferences and priority with Number 1 being the highest priority. I then just update the list by sorting it from least to greatest. It's pretty seamless considering how I don't have 1000s of things on my mind to do. 

The book I'm reading on managing time suggested it, so I have decided to apply it and it's working out for me. I just check off the tasks I completed and mostly go in order with it. It's been working well with managing my busy days so far. I'm just amazed with how a simple idea can be so powerful and useful with your own creativity. 

A guy I worked with last year called me up a few days ago to try to sell to me on being a life coach with me. I liked how it worked for me, but then I just wasn't interested in it anymore because I'm already busy with doing things that are making me happy. He told me to reach out to him, if I ever needed anything later. I think he's really interested in making it a business so he was trying very hard to convince me, but I decided to pass on it and wished him well. 

I'm not really disappointed by experiencing failure anymore. I don't mind moving forward still and maintaining this confident and happy state. I'm looking forward to reaching all of my goals someday and hope to do it sooner or later, but it looks like I'll probably be hanging on to a couple for the rest of my life, so there will never be any end to it. The point is that I'll be consistently working at it while self-motivating myself.  

Staying at a Good Place

Regardless of any situation I find myself in, it now looks like I'll stay happy however things turn out for me. It's a wonderful feeling to be in this state of mind, and it's mainly from running with a very confident and positive mindset. I don't know how it just kicked into gear, but it happened from picking up on some neuroscience and then applying it mentally.

It looks like things are starting to make a lot more sense to me and becoming less of a burden. I'm really in a pretty good peaceful state of mind these days, and it's great how I love to keep on building upon it. What's also awesome is that from not putting much thought into my grammar, this email composition from G-mail is correcting most of my noticeable errors on the go. 

I think I'm going to lay off of Poker more often because of its time consuming activity while also being stagnant sometimes. It just doesn't bring me enough fulfilling joy to compete and try to take other players' money. It's of course a great rush when you're consistently winning though but there are periods where you have to wait for a good setup. Knowing myself, I prefer to tell someone or program a computer what to do when that happens and pay for any applicable fees. 

I'm starting to figure out how I'm getting very comfortable with being intuitive with the useful resources that are available to me and making the most out of it. As long as I'm having fun, I don't seem to really mind dealing with my mistakes and perfecting my craft while becoming consistent enough to make a living out of it. 

Working at Building Wealth

I have been very interested in doing my trading and I probably could have benefitted a little if I were to stay up a little longer last night, instead of attempting to take a short nap but just ended up falling into a deep sleep. It's funny how I watched this anime episode where it had a boss fight and he placed a spell that was capable of putting any of the heros to sleep for eternity. He said that once their eyes stay closed, they would be dead. How fun would that be, trying to keep yourself awake while doing battle?

I'm still not mentioning this anime that I've been watching and I'm about twenty more episodes away from finishing the whole series that took the makers about ten years to complete. I guess that would be normal though to binge watch something this long, if you turn into a fan.

I think when i'm finished with this distraction then I'm probably going to have a lot more time on my hands to figure out my practical things and hype myself up to get them done on a daily basis. 

Letting Things Go

I'm still in November as I write this post, so it's going to be like talking about how 2020 has been going instead of focusing on the New Year. This might literally take place when I start writing these posts in the first week of January. 

I'm not really so worried anymore from being really confident in myself. I don't want to stay mad at silly people from having gone along with their silly schemes like a numbskull. I was so lacking in confidence and trying to look to the wrong individuals for support. They made it only worse for me because they really showed signs of how they could use a therapist. 

These people aren't really all that and neither will they be getting to the top, and it looks like they prefer moving on as well while keeping themselves distanced from my view. It's probably because they have values that I personally find to be weird. It's all okay because we were all made out to be differently from one another. 

They seriously tried to swing their heavy bats against me and didn't do much offense in the end because it was like a very long playoff series to me. I wasn't capable of making good explanations and couldn't really put up much of a fight either but they still couldn't get much off the ground while being against me. It's totally a lost cause situation and it sucks that it had to happen but it did so now it's time to move on, while trying to not still get so worked up about it. This is what I really want to do and have the swagger these days, so it's better that I continue to strive for personal improvement for my own happiness. I don't really care how selfish it may come off as either, but I still know they are all qualified candidates to go see a therapist!  

Finishing Up Distractions

I think my biggest distraction is really finishing up this one anime series right now. I'm really close to finishing it, and I really did enjoy watching all the episodes even though I blanked out on a few of them from being too tired while watching them. What's funny is that I'm not going to mention which show it is! I want to see if I forget which one it was like twenty years later if I ever go back to read this post again.

It's possible that at the rate I'm creating these posts on the fly, I could eventually get to being a year ahead of schedule even, so by the time it rolls around, it won't even be relevant to the current times. It's possible that it can even get so annoying for people to read. Oh well, I don't know which crowd I'm serving right now but I'll just stick to continuing on getting myself ahead with these posts. 

It's probably funny in the way I see that by the time I get married and mention it on here, it could be like that was already over a while ago. I personally know the dates that I'm writing it for of course and it's possible that I could do a little sorting but I just want to keep a simple routine going. I'm electing to not get paid for posting on here and doing this mainly out of my convenience, while also not being worried about noticing a drop of daily visitors. I'm just going to continue to post at the same time and same place, regardless of whatever happens as long as the Google servers continue to operate which could end up being like forever at this point! 

It would be sort of in good humor as well, if I were to pass away and hopefully with a good old age and happy man while continuing to feed posts once daily until it reaches the last one. I'm hoping that I'll still be sharp and healthy enough to share some good experiences that anyone can enjoy or learn off of if they want to when that time rolls around. 

Getting Things Back in Order

I think the main thing I really need to do is limit my binge watching for entertainment and work on cooking and working out. Yesterday, I was too full after dinner to be interested in cooking so it looks like I will have to wait for possibly the weekend. I think at this point, it looks like it will make the most sense to cook something fast and that looks good on the weekend. It is expensive to do online shopping for groceries but it saves so much time which is more valuable for me than paying up to an extra $10 for getting someone else to do the shopping and drop it off for me. I think it's a great idea and good way to make money, while being innovative. 

I managed to do some shopping for ingredients, so it's now time to put in time to work out and make a routine out of it. I do have an expensive gym membership that I have been neglecting all this time. Who really doesn't? I should be getting my money's worth out of that place, since I'm committed to sticking around, so that's where I should be putting my time. I also want to grow taller still while being an old guy and it's doing these yoga stretches that supposedly make you feel better anyway, so I should be concluding my night with those exercises. 

I even have a portable pull-up bar that I can install in my room and I don't mind doing a set of push-ups and sit-ups each night so it's just going to be really all about consistency at this point. 

Adding Small Changes

Some days you feel it and other days you just don't. On the days that you do feel it, it can still come out pretty dry if you aren't feeling it right away. Later on, if you say or write something, it can totally be off putting to some people who should go see a therapist!

Anyhow, I'm starting to cook and want to add in working out now to get some more balance in my life. The investing and trading is going along nicely for me right now. It's going to take several years to build up a fortune but I'm totally ready for it. There's just this inner drive with so much confidence that just keeps me moving along. 

It's interesting how answering questions on Quora shifts focus into a less selfish activity but more giving attitude. It looks like it's so effortless too with the answers I'm putting in, so I'm not getting that much credit for saying what goes on a lot of people's minds already. I guess it's pretty neat still that this blog is so focused on me, the main character as a narrative; while, Quora focuses on answering questions for someone. I still talk about myself while making explanations and laugh about my past that I struggled in. It's fun for me. 

Happy New Year's Day

Happy New Year's to everyone passing by this site today. I know this isn't a very big blog and maybe one person might be thinking this blog sucks! It's okay since the best YouTube videos also have their haters. The objective is to get views anyway and possibly bring the owner of it some income, so viewers should have the right to express however they feel through clicking an approval or disapproval button if they want to.

A lot of things that I have been living through have become a lot easier from gaining acceptance and a huge level of confidence. Things can't always go your way, so persevering through it is the way to go! For some who just have trouble coping with it, they should definitely go check out a therapist. 

I was very stubborn about not going to see a therapist because it costs too much money, but I know for sure that I don't need it because I'm a happy person underneath and always feeling very confident about himself. Even going through ups and downs, I still feel like there's so much to live for and to keep on working hard for something meaningful even if nobody cares to give me enough attention that I feel is well-deserved. I will just keep on going for being consistent because there's a passion that's developing inside of me from having gained all this personal confidence!

Basically, I'm self-motivated now and not dependent on others to really set my mood. It's fun though to have like the right girl in your life to enjoy and do some partying with. I don't really need to be on Facebook anymore, but I still care about sharing and trying to influence something great sometimes. 

It's nice to stay positive and have people you can relate to. Also, it seems like I'm around a good number of people enough times who could probably benefit from going to see a therapist. The way I have noticed these people will stick around in a nice way is to bring up their issues in a sensitive manner and address it with a positive solution that makes a lot of sense. If I'm making fun of it intentional or not then they are going to get mad and try to run me out of their mind. Still, if I talk about this with them then they are likely to change their minds again later. 

It makes sense to feel like I'm seeing cops now whenever I talk about Crazy Lee. I'm obviously making fun of her. She failed so silly and couldn't extend her restraining order on me. What an idiot! I was never interested in dating her either from having personal insecurities and still do with her. Anyways, I'm a relational person so I will try my best to get along with her since we were acquainted with each other at one point and this just feels really good to me. I can also accept her being more of an idiot and not wanting to do anything with me, too. This is where I believe I don't need to go see a therapist about it anymore. Let's just talk about her idiocy with her face-to-face and bring that up while debating on what her personal problems are and then tell her to add me as a friend on Facebook because it is like a handshake where I can just treat her as another insignificant stat and move on with my life. 

Happy New Year's Eve!

I would like to thank all of you, who decided to stop on by this site today. Wherever you are, I'm really touched to see numbers go up that don't belong to me. Yet, I'm not really driven by gaining attention, but more about just getting more comfortable with myself. This has turned into something like a social journal, where I don't really fear any repercussions. I can write so freely about my personal rants all I want to but let's not go there today.

I don't want to be driven by an angry approach to anything anymore. I would rather be this cool and clever guy who outsmarts the worst opponents out there, while not being a well-known hero. I don't need the recognition, in other words and don't mind doing something so impactful for free out of the courage and generosity that comes out of my heart. I'm so much of an idealist to a great fault.

Anyhow, thanks again and I wish everyone a Happy New Year's. I have noticed something new in that if I talk about insecurities that reach acquaintances who relate to them and address it in my naturally sensitive manner with a positive solution at the end that could bring an improvement then, they don't seem to drop me out of their life. Yet these people at the same time don't have much patience because let's face it, they are all candidates to go see a therapist and I sometimes don't want to be that helpful! This is how it was with that old church in Los Angeles. I want to keep on cringing while remembering those days where they did their crazy mob act on me with something that didn't relate to them personally. They are only human and still susceptible to a sinful nature, but it's by being inspired through the Holy Spirit which I believe they rejected for their own selfish means that came about from being angry with me bothering them about telling me what's going on with their messed up heads, that one is able to overcome this trial of blowing up in person and causing a frenzy like they did from being unable to control their emotions and trying to control a situation that they really never had a huge part of to begin with. 

I'm still committed to trying to get along with them and am ready for it because this is just my personality of being relational, so I'll be debating a lot of complicated things with them and bringing up their insecurities with me which I'm so capable of doing now. 

I have come a long way to becoming really straight-forward about who I am and clarifying main things with people who are upset with me. This happened the other day with my best friend, and I think she seriously likes me a bit more after debating with her in a fair-minded manner about taking a moderate risk of being at gatherings during this pandemic. She boldly claimed that too many people think like me and that's the problem in this world! 

I got her to see that I'm a healthy individual who can't spread it from wearing a mask even if I am asymptomatic. I even got her to see that she didn't explain how she felt enough with us and that we incorrectly interpreted her position of being okay about us going to a party. She thought it was going to be a small gathering, but then it ended up ballooning to a lot of people partying at one spot. Fortunately, it was outdoors and people had these natural small cliques that were appropriately spaced apart. My conclusion was that we were lucky to not catch it this time and that's how it's turning out so far because I have no symptoms. 

I don't know if I'm a healthy victim but to be safe, I will quarintee myself from her for a couple weeks to be safe. I said that I was doing this all for her; otherwise, I would still be doing my risk assessing and taking a moderate one. This could have made her blush over the phone with me, but it's not like I'm really interested in a serious relationship with her. Well, maybe we already have one from being super close, so it's not anything romantic then. 

Making Better Sense of My Time

I'm starting to realize that watching favorite episodes is something I can set aside for a later time instead of making it a priority. It will always be there whenever I feel like it, so there's really no need to give myself into it right after coming home, unless I'm just too much of a fan and can't help myself.

Yet, for practical reasons, I feel that I'm going to have to contain those desires to take care of other things first. It's because I'm starting to notice that once the time leaves, it's never coming back. Also with the thought of doing it for making more money, I could always put in more work whenever later. It's just that there are more important things to do like taking care of the family and managing personal health issues. 

I'm going to have to exercise consistent discipline now with just holding off on fun distractions until I have my productive and well-balanced tasks out of the way first. 

Finally Making Sense With Cooking Something

For several months, I have brought up so many times about how I want to cook and work out properly. I have a really good idea of how to go about cooking now. I managed to order ingredients on Amazon and have it delivered to my doorsteps. It's just that there's a fee of $5.00 for someone to shop for you, but this really took out the time that's involved with searching for those items at a store that you would rather not go around searching for. It's also difficult to be efficient about it as much as possible with all those shopping lists and not knowing how the items are arranged on the aisles. I would rather let someone else do the work for me, besides saving the money by putting in the extra time.

My best friend is really stingy with her small amount of savings and has a different value of placing more priority on being a couch potato after doing her work. I think this is normal for a lot of people, so maybe I'm looking for an extraordinary lady to marry since this type of behavior irritates me. When I'm around my best friend, then she's pretty cute in person so I seem to forget this but yeah, I can see more that just having a nice appearance doesn't really make the person the right kind of lover for you. 

It makes sense in the end because I never asked her for a serious relationship and she was the one who kept bringing up these comments in forms of questions, which I didn't take seriously enough. I was dealing with my own internal issues that I wanted to address selfishly while isolating others around me. She shows signs of interest with me which is a little questionable and based on her slight mood swings which gets triggered to happiness after cooking for her but I don't see myself dating her ever and this is getting more apparent with me. 

I just took a lunch break and had a nice walk outside by myself. During this time, I figured out on the spot what my best friend is lacking in to make her the perfect lover for me. I think I'll share this with her as well at a better time, and this blog attracts very little attention compared to other media outlets so I think I'm safe with how I will always stay committed to being an anonymous author. 

I would have chased after my best friend right after establishing our current relationship and possibly succeeded if she was a little bit sweeter and also had no personal concerns about her mental and health issues. Okay and on top of this, she was my ethnicity since my parents would go totally bonkers over her! I consider it to be two-and-a-half things because I'm not bothered by ethnicity anymore.

I am quite the idealist with finding the right partner and also have all the patience in the world while also not that concerned about never finding her sometimes. I think I'm one of the hardest types of personality to get into a serious relationship with. It's like the beautiful lady and me would both have to be very lucky to have met while being currently single to make this work. I understand that a lot of the ladies I'm attracted to are not single and my heart has become very open about dating those who had previous, serious relationships. Currently, I don't wish to accept single moms at the moment. Not until I've at least experienced parenting a biological child from myself for pragmatic reasons, of course. I plan to be a life-long dedicated partner because I have that type of confidence to stay together with any lady I decide to marry. 

Making Progress

It looks like I'm starting to get used to handling business while working with up and down cycles without being too affected by it emotionally. It's really hard when you are feeling like you are in a rut sometimes, but there are ways to get around it if you develop enough confidence. This isn't something that can really be taught anywhere, but somehow, it needs to be caught on by yourself. Sure, it helps to read books that you think might be good and other people you are interested in listening to for getting nice hints. 

Well, this is how I personally function in that I can't really absorb everything like a sponge any more. I'm sadly not at that age now. It would have been nice to be provided with good role models when I started out but I guess my family background is in that I'm supposed to be just another individual out there to live his life. It makes sense for me to not really be appealing at all to the large masses. I'm not really attracted by how good others may have it too, nor do I struggle with that much jealousy over it. I don't mind waiting for my own go around with it or just laying off of it if it's not comfortable enough for any reason. 

What's really nice about all of this is that I seriously have an inner core that's very confident about taking me places and have the willingness to put in all the effort to do so. It's just that I'm not really interested in following what excites people in general while doing my own thing. It could be that I'm not targeting myself to be the best for some competition either, so it's okay for me to accept being overlooked by anyone while just doing enough to be content with myself. 

Using Time Wisely

I think the best thing to do for me is to pretty much lay off of watching this fun and addictive anime show. I'm about forty more episodes away from finishing it now and it's spanned for over 300 episodes already while enjoying two movies to go with it! 

I mean I love the show and drama it portrays with the beautiful theme of struggle and always being there for your friends. I still won't mention the show I was watching. It isn't perfect by any means but it's fun to binge watch for the most part. Now, a new Star Wars season is coming up with the Mandalorian where it features a baby Yoda. At least for this one, I can just enjoy watching one episode weekly for the next couple months and then spend my other time on the weekend cooking for my best friend.  

Oh, did I mention that this post was made the day before Halloween? I know how crazy that sounds and can be related in a loose and silly way to the movie Nightmare Before Christmas. It's a Halloween movie set during the time of Christmas and there's Santa Claus involved with the ringleader just to give a little away to make it fun to watch. 

Well, I think I need to man up with my addictions to having fun and attend to my more productive and grown-up activities even if it sounds flat out boring sometimes. It's still fulfilling to me in a sense, so I guess I need to be a little more in tune better with my boring personal side. 

Sticking to Agenda

I think I have learned something good in that I'm not really phased by up and down cycles of the stock market anymore. I buy the strategy of diversifying with good stocks and then just riding the wave to profit. If it performs below expectations, then it's time to sell the stock and then keep the process going. 

What's so awesome is that I can put in a few dollars at a time for each stock using what's called fractional shares. I am also paying zero commission for purchasing or selling stocks, so that makes it a lot easier for someone to consider daytrading which is also a form of gambling and very time consuming. I don't do that and would rather use my precious time to enjoy doing something else.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone and thanks once again for joining me today! I know that I'm not accepting any more comments and will probably never respond back if you find your way to reach me, but I hope I was of good service to you. If it was entertaining then awesome, or if it was worthy of being mocked and ridiculed in your close quarters then it's fine too. I totally accept all of it and have for a while so it makes sense that I will keep on going with this. 

My projection is that this blog will never get any bigger because of the way I limit it, while having some quirkiness. I'm not looking to make a business out of this, and I just prefer to be this little guy who might be knowledgeable about a few things and could be doing rather well for himself. I'm happy to just write something on here and share openly with you while not pressuring anyone to visit this site. 

From choosing to remain anonymous, it gives me this sense of liberating feeling that I can let go of restraining myself. I do still strive to be a nice person, regardless and learning to cope with my anger issues has been one of the benefits I have finally gained from posting on here for a long time. 

Thanks once again for being with me on what has felt like a magical ride. It's mainly me going after my goals and working towards them more seriously. It would make sense because the world did slow down quite a bit from everyone having to watch out for the COVID-19 virus. I wonder how this will feel looking back on it twenty years later.

A lot of my past posts were written with me dealing with some worry and doing my best to address everything while making myself comfortable again. Yet, I think there were people who just didn't want to be around me anymore for some reason and then ended up disconnecting with me. I guess it happens and maybe I'm just not the right person for them to try to be friends with or even try to take advantage of later on. It could be that it's a sign of moving on as a selfish individual for other things they have in mind. I'm going to choose to not be mad about it and continue going after making myself a better person that I can be happy over. 

Happy Christmas Eve

First off, I would like to thank everyone who visited this site even if they found something was off and then left immediately while never ever coming back again! It's been a wild ride this year since I'm writing this post two days before Halloween comes around the corner. 

The way I have it set up is writing on average at most two posts a day from Monday to Friday and then taking the weekends and vacation days off. I've been doing this to stress my commitment of trying to average one post a day on this blog, so the best way to show it has been to use a scheduler. I'm using the one from Gmail and it works very well. It's just that I'm typing into an email textbox to make these posts, so it might take a little getting used to or maybe no one in the world will ever come around to doing something unique like I'm doing with it. The reason I have chosen this scheduler is because I don't want to pay for anything when I don't have to, so Gmail keeps everything free with enough storage space to save some backup files I make at work and allows me to take it anywhere around the world. 

I hope everyone has a jolly Christmas and is doing well, despite feeling for a lot of families who have been struggling to get by. It's a major break to finally have grown into a very confident and positive man, starting from this year. 

One of the new things I'm applying from having learned it is thinking about how I can make myself better and let go of the past. My emotions are strongly attached to it so I figure that it's still going to come back to haunt me, but this time I want to just use those feelings for motivation to be a better person for myself and let it go quietly in a repeated fashion. 

Sticking to the Plan

It looks like in order for me to get somewhere then I'm going to have to work at limiting my distractions and doing things that I highly prioritize and want to do first. Maybe the lack of my satisfaction is probably from figuring that I don't really need to do much extra work with my investing and trading activity. It's pretty awesome how I've worked it out to come to this point. 

It could be that I don't really want to give in to working out and cooking because it's filled with some insecurities and mainly just not being aware of what I'm supposed to be doing. I don't have a set mind for it yet, but I know it's what I would like to be able to do on the fly without putting up much of a hassle for it. It's something I'm really going to need to work on. I guess I'll just work at coming up with a priorities list and try to keep on following it.  

Time to Move Forward

I think it's a total relief that the World Series is over now. I am writing this post on Oct 28 so it's only 54 days ahead of schedule at this point. I couldn't get my mind off of it, and I just had to watch it instead of doing my boring tasks I had in mind. After finishing the game, I ended up falling asleep and then woke up today to suffer from a couple losing trades I could have probably prevented. Oh well, it's a done deal now and I still accumulated more than 10% profit this month while trading the minimum amount. I think I need one more month of testing out an even better strategy that I think I developed just to be sure, before going all out with this. Still, I am actively trading while making money with the least amount of risk possible so I must still be doing something right for a change.

It can only get better as I increase my winning percentage and get more selective with my trading entries. I'm close to having a robust system now that just works while self-adapting to any kind of current market situation. I'm not going to share this with the general public either, and it's possible some people might still think I'm crazy if I do because one can never know what will happen from the uncertainty. It's also putting someone's hard earned money on the line, so I'd rather just advise them to do it on their own and struggle to get there if they want it so badly. Otherwise, it just wasn't meant for them I guess. 

Now, I'm looking to also add on with trading cryptocurrencies and seeing if I can adapt a similar system that I already have going with my Forex trades. These are just for fun right now of course while using a demo account. For stocks, because of its expected lower return and less volatility attached to it, I'm just going to leave it to the experts I placed my trust in. I'm definitely playing the role of an investor in stocks, compared to being a speculative swing trader with Forex and cryptocurrency. There's also a service that my investing group offers in swing trading stocks, so I'll be looking to get into that as well. It's like copy and paste with trading stocks for me. 

Staying Committed to Personal Improvement

Maybe reading in some areas that I carry plenty of interest in will provide me with so much useful information. Yet, for the way I am, I think writing on here is really the best way for me to express myself and feel like I have something to say without really being a bother to anyone. 

I'm really tracking now on my sentences and can tell if it's going to stir up someone to think wrongfully about me! I've already made several mistakes and instead of getting ticked off repeatedly over the same thing in the past at the same people for being stupid with me, I should just use those negative emotions to motivate myself to be a better person and continually let it go. It's just going to come and go for me on a regular basis, so instead of trying to fight it now, I want to make peace with those haunting and insecure feelings.

I guess I can't really afford the time in a practical manner to post entertaining material. I really have better things to do while being bored, which is doing something that feels even more boring and stressful sometimes. These activities might really define me which is being productive and feeling daily fulfillment over it. I think I can live a really humble life, but the fun that goes with it are really just the little things whenever I give into it.  

Yesterday's Approach

I think what drove me pretty hard was my strong interest to finish up with watching an anime series. It's just too fun to let up on the binge watching activity. I think the best thing is for me to limit it and work on my goals that feel boring or stressful because I feel that there's better value and will feel more rewarding later on after putting my time into it. 

I basically have competing interests underneath me personally. Yet, I put in my bare minimum work to feel like I earned the right to binge watch last night. I also felt like I lost a sense of personal direction and timing while going into my zone of staying stimulated with enjoying a 2-dimensional and fictional world. I find these to be more entertaining than regular shows with actors pretending to be someone else. I think it's because there's more freedom for the artists to express themselves and I notice the liberties they take to animate things that people in real life would never attempt or allow some budgeting for.

I'm going to try to come up with a concrete list and then just try my best to follow it. If I can't finish, then it's totally fine but as long as my heart is in tune with it no matter what I do then it will still satisfy me enough.

Prioritizing Main Thoughts

What I want to do in order today after work starts with my usual driving to the car wash. I'm actually pretty content that writing anything to my heart's content hasn't raised any flags with legal authorities. It was mainly a few exes who ended up having beef with me and then issuing a restraining order against me, but other than that, everything has been all fine and dandy!

I am physically a short man, so it was hard to get out of my head that I could be considered to be so scary to these exes but okay, I can accept that it's because they have feeble minds and were totally stressed out while not knowing what to do. I do know what to recommend for them- they should all go see a therapist! It's all because I'm not in jail and the court orders were dismissed with prejudice so that makes me feel so bonafide! 

Luck definitely didn't play a role in my decision, but okay, maybe just a tad to push myself to stick with the right direction. I'm doing really well underneath my core and psychologically. I feel really stable and extremely confident about just life in general. It's like no matter what gets thrown at me, I'm going to bounce back and try to become stronger. I think this is definitely a manly attitude to stick to for a short guy like me. It doesn't even bother me that much to discuss about how short I am or even make some jokes about it. I don't mind being made fun of for it, but I have a feeling that if it's overdoing it then yes, I'm going to become really mad. It could also be a sign of envy for a few people because I don't really have that much great expectations on me anymore.

It's totally fine with where I am at. I'm a short, undesirable, eastern Asian man. I am among a race of people that is arguably considered to be the least desirable person in the whole wide world that women would want to date. However, eastern Asian women are the most sought after which is such an interesting contrast. 

I'm better off just attracting ladies by carrying myself well in person, rather than trying to look for a farfetched connection online. I'm just not totally attracted to that many ladies online I guess and would prefer to see them in person already. It's like there's something genuine to look for while doing it the old-fashioned way. I guess this isn't really a bad thing then, so with the odds against me, there's really nothing that can be done about it. Maybe I could just settle for a nice and hot lady who would be crazy enough to marry me and take on my odd last name too. 

Learning from the Past

I'm inspired by the Holy Spirit to take a completely different approach to how I have usually done it. Normally, I would just go through the same emotional cycle of stressing out temporarily while blurting out offensive insults around nobody and then calm myself down. 

Now, I want to see how I could improve myself over the incident that just passed regardless of feeling like it was my fault or not. Then, I want to let the whole thing go while having learned something good about it. I think this is the best approach with allowing myself to always have a peace of mind.

I'm going to admit here that I do cuss out loud by myself while thinking about Annie, an old caregroup leader from my ex-church. It's pretty funny to think of my former care group at my former church like a bitter ex who turned into a lost cause with me. I guess it was bound to happen sooner or later, but I do want to let the whole thing go for my own sanity now. It's been ten years already. 

Okay, I'll go even further to say that I treated them like a concubine because I always saw them as second class compared to my main church I loved to attend! They didn't like me doing this of course but I think their Biblical doctrine is a little twisted to suit their own selfish needs. Isn't this already a common and believable accusation for the world to understand? 

Anyway, I don't want to yell cuss words anymore whenever I randomly feel haunted by the past with these exes! I can be inspired by the Holy Spirit now whenever those hardships resurface to improve and make myself happier while looking to move on to the point that I won't be bothered by seeing their faces anymore! I already made my vow from being inspired by the Holy Spirit to try my best in getting along with them.

Things I Want to Still Implement Properly

I think I have a really unique situation in this world. I'm a blend of all the normal things that might not be that appealing at all for acquaintances on my social media site. At the same time, I have a drive to get it together and do well enough to get by without being too much of a ruckus. I was pretty stupid in the past from dealing with unwanted emotional issues, but it has all been accounted for from having gained legitimate personal confidence and a positive outlook in life. 

I don't think people who notice me on social media don't really care to hit the like button for the most part, or it could be that the connections don't really appeal to them that well and this is how I've turned out. Well, in person, I never really said that much and now I have this really positive and confident outgoing energy. Actually, putting it to the test, I'm even realizing that it's just how I am and it's not really seen as the best thing or something is being overlooked intentionally. It's like it's where the rubber hits the road and it just doesn't matter for me to regard it. I guess that makes sense with not getting much noted appreciation because I'm intentionally doing it at a leisurely pace. It could be that I'm a slightly unattractive Asian man talking in perfect English and making sense like an outsider that people sort of like to become reserved with me! Well, if I was a very pretty Asian girl then it might just be the opposite. I don't really mind not getting the attention because it really means nothing that important to me in the end, so maybe I remind readers of that sometimes.

I'm still trying to find a way to work out more regularly and find time to cook the recipes that I'm interested in. It's still a work in progress but that's pretty much the ones that I want to add in with my priorities from just being interested in it. Yet, it's like my second night of missing out on watching some entertaining anime episodes. It seems like I'm okay with holding off on it, so I may not really be that addicted to it. 

Lastly, I want to try to make some money off of cryptocurrency now. It looks like a very legitimate thing to make a ton of cash at a high risk of course! It's sort of similar with Forex that I trade regularly so I have some experience with it. I'm probably going to look for a demo account and then set up my custom indicators while testing this market now. It looks like I'll be happy moving into this eventually, along with Forex. Overall, I think Forex is my sweet spot with making the best return for me right now. 

Looking to Improve Action

Yesterday, I realized that I was getting really drowsy at around 8 pm after reading a book. For about an hour and half, I went through like eight books reading one chapter each. I plan to make this a habit because it's quite fun for me to read a little bit about different subjects all at once. I'm even open to reading novels now. 

I'm going to start needing a lot of bookmarkers because I may have more than a hundred books to read lying around the house. I think I'll just avoid reading any more Harry Potter novels I haven't finished because the movies already spoiled it for me. I'm probably going to start getting rid of some books by selling them for dirt cheap at a used bookstore and being open to something else that interests me. I finally picked up a taste for reading several books at once in small portions. 

Honestly, a used book is good enough for me since I'm already used to the library. It's also cheaper even though I still don't mind buying cheap online books if I can find them. I don't think I'll be shopping at a Barnes and Nobles anymore for a nice book. I prefer shopping at used bookstores and have become a fan of it! 

I ended up falling asleep on my loveseat yesterday while mentally planning the next steps I intended to do! I enjoyed the whole night while dreaming about how I was always complaining about my body being in an awkward pose. The other night, what kept me up a little longer was drinking a cup of moderately caffeinated tea and enjoying the last innings of the World Series. I'm going to start resorting to this because it seems to help out with my energy level of doing some fulfilling activities. 

Following Through on Tasks

Yesterday, I did manage to go through my to-do list for the most part and I am pretty satisfied with it. There's a few more adjustments I could make on the go but they aren't really that big of a deal. It seems like it's just better to go through the motions on the list while giving them priority and then go to sleep if you can't finish it.  The next day, it would be the same thing again.

Based on a time management book I read, it's okay to list activities you want to do but don't have time to go through them at the moment. It's about prioritizing doing the important and essential things you want to do first. It appears that I'm going to be working with an alternating personal schedule.

Tracking Each Move I Do

I'm going to try writing what I have in mind with doing. The only distractions I see holding me back is watching the World Series or some more anime episodes that I'm close to finishing. It has more than 300 episodes, so I was on it for a while. I'm not going to mention which one because I want to see if I forget what it was like twenty years later if I ever have a chance to read this post again.

In order of meaningful steps I plan to do today before sleeping:

1. Go to the car wash.

2. Eat dinner.

3. Read like 10 books at once. 

4. Buy stuff to prepare myself with getting sore after going to the gym.

5. Look at recipes and pick out something to do and then shop for them online.

6. Do a max set of push ups, sit ups, and pull ups.

7. Trade at around 8 to 9 pm.

8. Do growing taller exercises.

9. Wash up.

10. Watch a couple anime episodes or more until I feel like passing out.

11. Go to sleep. 

Putting in Better Value With My Time

Yesterday, I really sought out to spend some time purchasing essentials online but I got carried away with watching live Game 1 in the World Series with the Dodgers and Rays playing each other. I know it's like a month and half behind schedule here, but this is how I have been rolling with all these posts. I'm currently 52 days ahead of schedule, so it looks like I'm averaging at around that pace with preparing these posts often. 

The way I'm able to do this is from using the scheduler from G-mail. I've already made a few blunders from choosing the wrong date or time and not double checking it several times. Overall, it hasn't been much of an issue to maintain though. The best part of all this is that it's free and not requiring me to set up another server so I could do this fancy and enviable operation of posting onto this blog in a daily, robotic fashion.

There's really no money for me to gain from sharing some personal experience or wisdom, and I prefer to keep it like that. After all, I'm keeping myself anonymous forever and not really accepting any comments. There's a sneaky way to reach me of course, but there's no guarantee I'll write back! It will be funny to see how long this keeps going even when I pass away. 

Of course, I have found better success in reaching readers by participating on another site. I have only one post that's starting to act viral. It's all just for fun and I even shared this post with a potential girlfriend who said she loved it! 

I like to keep it real without holding anything back, while condensing main ideas into a few understandable sentences. It's just hard to implement in real life, so I know it's still going to be a challenge for those who are struggling. These are the people I'm reaching, so they might not be the most stable crowd to be around right now but nonetheless I used to be one in that crowd. 

I think the main reason why I'm able to share my thoughts so openly and feel good about them without holding anything back is that I feel very comfortable and confident about making my money with investing and trading currency which is something I'm not discussing at all on that site. I'm only talking about the answers I have from what I used to struggle with figuring out, so I can see it bothering very few people who would be too weak and averse to do anything about it anyway.  

Simplifying Agenda

I think the best thing to do with getting back time is doing the least as possible while sticking to the most important things that you want to do on a daily basis. I guess it's rough while feeling tired but still, there's something mental underneath you that wants to push you into greatness somehow with what you can do! 

It's this type of motivation that we should all be striving for on a daily basis. I'm no motivational speaker but the last paragraph does make me feel lit! Let's see if I feel the same way on a later day from reading this again, but I don't think it's even going to matter because it's really about doing the necessary things that you are interested in regardless of how difficult it is to get yourself going in life. 

Naming it, I mainly want to be up late enough to manage my swing trades on a nightly basis. It's only done at roughly 9 pm, so that isn't too rough. Secondly, get my 8.5 mile run each Saturday morning. 

The thing I'm having trouble doing is focusing on working out and cooking. It has some difficult barriers for me that I still need to sort through. I guess it's natural to feel like they are a hassle but for me, I enjoy how fulfilling they can be. They are after all only optional things to my daily necessities to get by.

Another thing that I feel is optional and fulfilling is sitting down to read some good books! On top of my two main must haves for me, I don't do my extra fulfilling activities on a daily basis. I get too distracted by TV and stimulating anime episodes. They are just too fun to pass up for me so I'm prioritizing fun over my fulfilling activities right now. I guess it's not entirely bad, but the way I would like to run my life is putting those fulfilling actions over the fun I'm having. 

After all, they are things that I'm interested in doing and I just know it's good for me and think it's worthwhile to invest in for a better future. 

I'm going to have to run these personal thoughts into action to see how it goes today. I do have the high level of confidence and positivity to endure exercising and cooking on a regular basis. I'm also a typical guy, so doing some cooking will be foreign for me but I believe I have what it takes to be successful with doing something at a small level that other ladies are doing and not really mind the lack of attention I will be getting for it. 

Sticking to What's Most Important

The most important thing for me is eventually making a lot of money on my own from investing and trading and then being able to move out of my parent's house into my own nice home and then pick up a hot wife! A really good friend who is a girl has proposed to me that I become her roommate and that I can practice on being a nice boyfriend to her. I'm actually really interested too, and this would mean that I would have to make myself not totally reliant on this family business because my dad is part owner of it and he would be totally against this idea I have in mind! 

I think it's really dumb and close-minded with how my parents think about preserving some pure bloodline of my ethnicity. I don't mind if they don't want to ever get involved with me after I move out and get married. I know that I'll be just fine being my own exceedingly confident and very positive man! I need to first get to financial independence on my own terms, before I can start thinking about this set future. 

It's overall, a really long term strategy while riding through plenty of up and down cycles. For a couple friends I know, they will get caught up in their emotions with winning from gambling or just get more passive about investing because they don't want to lose anymore. I'm totally okay with moving myself forward on to this path to riches!  

Exciting Outlook

It finally looks like the work I put in with trading the Forex market is starting to pay off. I'm making a ton of change off of it by trading with the minimal amount to warm myself up. It's neat that my strategy is starting to consistently work this whole month. I want to put in a couple more months to just be sure that this is the real deal now, but it looks like I'm reading the markets properly now.

It's really all based on theories and personal style so I don't think trading on your own is something you can really teach. Sure, there are systems out there that you can buy but nothing comes close to perfecting your own. You can definitely borrow things that are out there while testing different systems and looking for something that makes sense to your needs and will be committed to. 

I did a lot of testing on the Forex market on my own and it totaled for over a few years. I even hired coaches to help me out. I ended up using a couple of their indicators while finding a replacement for one of them to mimic a system that joins two different systems together for my own preference. I'm not really following any of their setups closely, and it's really been from my own trial and error that I have come up with two of them that work really well for me and happen enough times during the week to keep me satisfied with day/swing trading the market. 

I may have landed on a rare goldmine for myself, but it's something that I believe I can't properly teach anyone because of my own personal biases. I guess it might work by following my invented school of thought, but there may be some changes you could make with it. I don't really want to teach this to anyone for free and there's also a chance you could lose more than you can chew. Thirdly, I would rather keep all the profit for myself using my own funds rather than having someone else claim some from profit while backing me with their money. Therefore, it makes sense to keep this an independent activity that I'm lucky to have stumbled upon and taken initiative from just searching for something like it years ago.  

With doing well in stocks, it's totally another ballgame and I joined an investment group to do all the heavy lifting for me. So far, I'm making profit overall from following their advice with allocating my portfolio to how things make sense for me. I want to get more wealthy so I could start having more fun investing while using their full services and possibly put it more on autopilot and then have a fun early retirement while continuing to make money and being able to use it to influence better outcomes for my family and possibly my local community.  

Planning Tasks

I'm writing this post on the 19th of October and it looks like the local gym has reopened with some restrictions added in place. I'm looking to go work out since none of the meetups really interest me during the week. I'm more open to going to an event on the weekends, so for the meantime I want to focus on my health whenever I'm off work and continuing to work on investing my money.

I bought a Poker book for only 50 cents at a bargain bookstore and it's by the Poker pro who has won the most World Series of Poker tournaments. He actually has some good tips that you can follow and they are laid out in only a few pages since I'm only interested in online NL Hold'em. There's actually more that goes into it like calculating pot odds and reading opponents but that comes all through experience and learning things about yourself. 

Anyhow, by adding those few tips, I feel like I'm having more fun with playing Poker now and I even ended up winning a large pot that was nearly triple my max buy-in! I'm going by a bust-or-boom strategy now and reloading whenever my chip stack goes below 25 big blinds. However, if I end up losing it all in one hand then I'm out for the whole day with no doubts on my mind (bust). The same applies if I end up totaling to profit with making my buy-in amount or more (boom). 

I'm only looking to play on the weekends when I have a little free time left over and preferably in the morning to late afternoon. 

Managing Time Better

I'm starting to think now that I have a better grasp of what I want to do with my time. Reading some books have been pretty useful guides for me. I'm pretty much reading through ten books at once right now and find that I'm satisfied with just going through one chapter for each one daily. In a way, reading has become pretty fulfilling and something I don't mind trading in a couple years of my life for the knowledge or enjoyment I could accumulate from it.  

I'm pretty stoked about not being locked up, after dealing with a personal hardship of holding a grudge against others over an issue that was way out there. I definitely had anger issues, but what brought me back to control is realizing that I'm lucky to be a person who loves being supportive more instead of a brat. It was my insecurity of not being able to get along with these crazy, unsupportive, and distasteful individuals that drove me to the brink of insanity. I have accepted how a few people or any small group can perceive my faults to be driving them crazy too, sometimes. I think it's just timing issues and not realizing what they are going through at the moment from being so blinded and selfish about achieving what you want that you can end up behaving ignobly. 

For the time being, I have made a vow with the Lord until the day I obtain my biggest personal goals that I won't ever visit the odd church that ended up kicking me out over a social issue that never dealt with us personally and being overly angry while hanging on to presuppositions. I get it that they were thinking crazy and a friend I talked to about it just casually confirmed it without me being aware of it at the time! I have chosen not to stay mad about it but use the memory to grow stronger with inspiration from the Holy Spirit while continuing to suffer and work around my personal weaknesses. 

I have a new vow to add on to my current vows that I haven't broken to this day because they are for the Lord and inspired by the Holy Spirit. My new vow to add on is that I will try my best to get along with them when the day comes after being fully settled in. This hopefully won't involve many needless debates with them, but I will give myself over to them for laboring purposes. If it doesn't work out in the end, then I also vow to not treat it like it's the end of the world for my own sanity! 

Understanding What Good Women Desire

From being a man who can also get really in tune with his emotional side, I enjoy better friendships with girls than guys. Currently, I don't keep in touch with any of my usual guy friends during this pandemic and have been with mainly girls. This means that I have more girls who are my good friends than guys!

I have noticed these girls can sometimes think a little crazy, and they have even admitted to it with me while they are going through a hard time. The thing though is that I still love them for who they are, and it's quite funny from being a man wanting to be around the love of a preferred woman's affections, I'm willing to put up with most of it!  

I understand that a good woman wants to give it her all to a gentle, loving, and smart man who will always provide for her and make her feel secure. I am able to draw this conclusion from having just asked at the table while having dinner with them. I can better distinguish with how they feel comfortable around me and see me as a friend. From observing their body language and facial expressions, I can also suspect what they have been through but a lot of them seem to be very mature and accepting of their situations while capable of coming up with intelligent plans to get what they want! 

Interesting Situations

I believe that I'm at a very good time of my life right now and enjoying being by myself more. I think the only thing I really need to work on better is improving my fitness level and cooking more delicious food. For me, I don't think they are a waste of time and pretty worthwhile to do on a consistent basis. It's just awesome with the potential those two activities can possess! 

I'm going to have to just sacrifice watching anime, since it's technically something I can always live without if I don't have the time. I think a lot of the extracurricular activities I think about are only for if I can afford the time and willing to pay up after getting my priorities out of the way. 

Basically, the personal and basic priorities for me on a daily basis is to focus on making money and maintaining good health! I also consider my interpersonal relationships to be highly important. Basically, having fun from watching a couple anime episodes or even going out to have fun once in a while is something I will have to squeeze in just a little each night if I can. 

Million Dollar Plan

I personally believe that I'm on the path to becoming a millionaire in about five years or less. I really don't think it's something you can fully teach to others properly because it deals with managing risk, and there's some psychology that will be involved. I also don't want to trade other people's money and get some commission off of it when I could just manage my own and keep all the profit that goes with it. I feel really selfish in this area and don't really want to help other people make money. It's like a competition to me and how you have to put in the work to earn it; otherwise, choke from having made some critical errors! 

Anyhow, I think the most important thing is having dignity and a peace of mind from finding a lot of self-confidence and positivity while also getting results from putting in the work with some discipline. I'm a lot better than unusual these days and seems to be only improving. It's sort of giving me the confidence to go ask out a couple girls I'm highly attracted to and see what I can make of it! 

Figuring Out What to Do

It looks like managing time properly really comes down to cutting down on the excess that you don't want in your life or don't really need. You can look at it from a biological and personal point of view. With the personal things, I've seriously taken interest in studying the Bible and applying principles that I can understand and connect very well with. I believe that the Bible is uncompromising and also the inerrant Word of God. I have trouble connecting with it from just letting the words I hear flow from one ear in and then out the other. 

I don't think it's a big deal though because I just need a little dose of it to get a mighty aha moment that really carries my faith in Jesus. Being satisfied probably does come from self-realizations and practicing things that originate from the ultimate source of inspiration. I believe this comes from the Word of God!   

I feel a lot more satisfied from reading several books at once that I've taken interest in. I'm probably just taking them only a chapter at a time daily, but it seems to be working well for my personal tastes.

Listing Few Tasks I Want to Do and Find Important

I think for my personality, it's really easy for me to identify that it's three main things that I find the most important for my physical needs. Honestly, for my spiritual side, I'm happy to be trying to plug myself into listening to the Word daily which I have trouble following so now I have purchased a very thick volume called the Believer's Bible Commentary which is in great shape and came half off at a secular book store! It's unique and was the last and only one there, so I will put it to great use to just get a basic understanding of the Bible and start getting better hints on what God really wants me to do with my life. Sure I have my needs also and will make my petitions via prayers and then go for it and hope to reach like the stars! There was also a classic Christian book called A Purpose Driven Life and that one was sold to me for only a dollar!  These came from a book store that isn't religious at all and they treated these books with some under value which works for me. I'll be back later so I can buy many more books sold at that store for cheap.  

Basically, I said the most important one for me was work and I guess that would be easy for most to identify with. The second one is investing my money through stocks and speculating with trading foreign currencies right now. I'm holding up with little to some profit right now and it's better than nothing. Lastly, it's a combination of exercise and nutrition so keeping up with good health. Everything else is pretty much unnecessary and something I'm doing for fun or because I feel obligated to, except for getting out often to just hang out or trying to piece together in my head that very instant how I can date this hot lady I laid my eyes on! 

Being single has its advantages in that from having gained a lot of self-confidence with unwavering positivity, I'm free to roam around with less interruptions in my personal life. I was thinking about copying and sending this post to married peers I don't associate with anymore and not in very good standing at the moment for laughs to just stick it to them! I think I'll hold off on it and just write on here that I was considering it. 

Managing Time Properly

I recently literally bought an idiot's guide to managing time properly! I'm going to try to put together what I've gained so far from it and write the little amount that I can right now. 

It's pretty much figuring out everything that you want to do to be happy or have to do and then scheduling each task in the order of importance. The most important thing to do with my life right now is doing my job because I need the money to save up for continuing to make investments. Something that I take granted for and happy that I do is that I always try to listen to the same audio Bible while commuting or driving anywhere by myself. It's going to be about my tenth time running through it.  

I figure that I'm always trying to be a nice guy overall, even though I can cuss up a storm while around nobody and act really moody with myself. My nice-guy act naturally kicks in whenever I'm around people. I just like being this type of person around others, no matter how mad I get. I love being a calm and collected person in general and something I will have to work on while I'm by myself. 

The Lord is graceful and merciful towards me and knows my heart better than I do, but I am convicted of my foul tongue that makes false accusations out loud by myself when I'm completely positive and always lucky enough to get nobody to hear me. I have conversations with myself in a stupid, vulgar, and grouchy manner about past friends who I don't like anymore and can't associate with. I try to not hold the Lord's name in vain either and can catch myself doing that, but the same insults about people I still don't like will come out of my mouth. 

I admit this side of me needs to change even if nobody in the world gets to see this side except for me. Even if I'm around the wife and kids someday, they won't get to see this and probably also never around the family dog or cat! It's just when I'm by myself and everybody is out running errands and having the house to myself, I can let my thick tongue rip up a really good one while it's directed at nobody. I instantly stop though when someone comes into my view from a short inaudible distance.

I guess it's pretty funny in a sense and could be understandable that I'm literally putting in the effort to always stay a normal and nice person no matter what gets under my skin. I'm not doing this for any brownie points either with the Lord, but only because I find it satisfying for my personality. The Lord intended me to be this nice, gentle guy all along, so I guess I'm still inspired by the cross. 

Picking Proper Investments

Based on following the principles of an investment group I have chosen to be a part of for the rest of my life, it's important to allocate savings into appropriate portfolios. I have split it up into three main ones, which is basing it off of making the most sense with what I can. 

In a nutshell, having a lot of money makes it really easy to diversify your portfolio and stay safe to make only a small percentage of profit which would still be comfortable to live beyond your means! The saying that the rich keep getting richer sort of applies here, but it's not like you can stay or get rich if you don't save your money and put it into good investments. 

It's really crazy how a lot of families are lacking in enough funds to invest, but I call myself lucky to still be single and not be responsible for feeding that many mouths. I think it's been natural for me to try to run away from getting married because I was worried about not having enough money. More than that, there's also dealing with rejections or worrying about the lady not being the person you thought you could enjoy. 

A lot of these personal issues were solved from obtaining full self-confidence and inner stability. I'm a pretty demanding person, so it took a lot of hard work and self-awareness for me to acquire it and become happy with myself fully. It's a work of art that I'm proud to have finally achieved! Maybe this is the advice I can give for a dumb friend who is really stubborn about doing well for himself over small incidents and then feeling depressed the next time because life keeps going and he can't reach his goals. I will have reached my own goals by then first and be genuinely happy about it to give enough credibility for him. 

For my three main portfolios, I'm doing fair at it while making profit. I literally have a safe one, moderate one, and also high risk and high profit one. The safest one is called the core portfolio which is sitting at 32% of my investment savings. The moderate one is just a mixture of all types of stocks that range from blue chip to slightly speculative in nature and it commands the most at 38%. My most risky one is the smallest but still has a significant chunk at 30%. 

Currently, I'm putting in only $1000 a month based on calculating my annual income before taxes. I look to be in this game for a very long time and continuing to improve upon doing well with my most risky portfolio. I'm going to be the most hands on with that one but it also has the biggest ROI potential so it makes sense to get most of my attention.

The core portfolio is pretty much the solid foundation that will build upon my investing and trading career. I feel comfortable with giving my stocks the most monthly contribution so this is how I'm going to roll with it for now until I make a lot of money to the point that I'll be able to invest heavily on expensive mutual funds, actual gold, and bonds while hiring an advisor to collect legal tax breaks!